Am i going insane?

you are either going through a phase, or have stress/anxiety caused depression. going through depression is difficult and you do start to question almostt everything you know of. i reccomend you go to see your local doctor, ask for some tests to be done, if you are suffering from depression i recomend that you put yourself on waiting lists for couceling sservices as i am finding them a Big help in my current state of depression.

not depression.

there is absolutely nothing wrong with this; what i suggest you do is stop obsessing over whether this is normal. just consider it a part of your life.
writing helps a lot. this is something unique to you. embrace it.
i have my fair share of existentialism, mind you, so i know what you mean. recently, i finished camus. i don't experience heavy periods of pessimism like you do, but i've had some crazy experiences of 'insanity' in my life..

I wish I could meet you, my friend. You and I would have some amazing conversations.

I felt like I was reading my own thoughts...I couldn't live without answers, I felt like i was either going to kill myself, or someone else.. So I sought out help, and was diagnosed with BPD, they've got me on 60mg of citalopram, and 5mg clorazepam.. it hasn't stopped my train of thought, but it keeps me from getting so pissed off about it.

Krazy mo-fo

No no, he doesnt seem have the urge to go out and slaughter people for the hell of it, the person merely wishes to experience the experience of having killed someone.

I think its the same thing as when your a virgin you desire having sex. Whats the point of life if you cant experience everything there is?

Morals all depend on your point of view, they fall in the same category as good and evil for me. Pointless their all relative to your stance. Whats good for me may not be good for you.

normal. your just depressed and questioning your existance, I was the same.

NO. Wanting to kill people, and having no reason for it---IS NOT NORMAL. That is being the homocidal maniac, or some other kind of medical personality disorder. Please seek treatment, therapy. You clearly know that you need help or you would not have posted what you did. You know empathy exists, and you know you don't have any. Morals exist, and right and wrong exists. Without that, there would be no society. Just people going around killing people and thinking its ok.

It's not normal. The moment you get thoughts trending to harm others is a signal that you need help.

there are so many emotions to feel if you dont block them off with negativity or total faith etc. But agonizing grief, guilt, and pain are not some you may want to induce. Ending a life willingly is not an easy thing.

Um, to the person who wrote above, I do not think this is totally normal at all.

yay exactly my thoughts

Hey, I think I've had the same experience as you before and it seems to me you're experiencing some kind of psychosis. The best thing to do is rationalize everything to why it really is the real world. I know it's hard but you have to keep the thought in your head that it really is reality. Also, you have to realize to yourself that whatever is in your head, first of all, might be true, but can't be proven at all. Second, you have to realize that all these things just make your emotions go haywire and that none of these things will actually affect you in real life if you don't want it to. They are all just thoughts, not reality.
The best way to think about things are is this what would really be the best task for you and other people? If you accomplish these tasks, where will that exactly leave you in the end? No where. Basically, you have to realize in a world where everything makes sense, you have to act in a way that would make sense; a way efficient for everybody, not just your own thoughts.

Oh! If you don't think there are morals you might have Anti-Social Personality! That might make sense!

Sounds like you're thinking too much. It could be: A manic episode (Unless you've always been like this), it could be Generalized Anxiety Disorder.

IDK I wouldn't worry

i think its normal. sounds like your a thinker, an introvert. someone told me introverts go over things over and over again in their head until they go crazy with thinking too much. i'm in intovert so i get it. i think way too much, but it sounds like an interesting brain. just write it down, have a creative outlet or soemhting. dont go crazy with thoughts. i know what it feels like to be caught up in your head.

oh I also think alot of that type of personality can enjoy being Jet fighter pilots or enjoy other thrilling high energy careers but seek advise from professional might be a must to get diagnosed and to know whats going on. I think getting into Buddhism/meditation as that too might be helpful.

totaly normal, but you do need to sort your life and your problem