Am i going crazy?

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Everyday i wake up and think "wtf is all this?" , then i proceed to do all of my daily stuff (eat,shower,work,date,go out with friends) and I am ,consciously, always acting every move i make, every word i say, every facial expression i do... All of this because i feel like there is not a single way that i can prove that the world outside my thoughts is real.
Every stimulus that reach any of my sensory organs is ultimately transformed in some kind of interpretation inside my head, but if i can have all of the "interpretations" in my head without the stimuli (for eg.: in a dream), how can I even know that the very stimuli that are supposed to exist and make me feel the "interpretations" of such are even real at all? tbh, wtf is to be real anyways?
It's not even that i think that the world outside my head is unreal, its just that i have no way to tell if it's real or not!
This has been driving me crazy , i have been living my life with this question for 4 years! Everyday i keep going without knowing why or what motivates me to keep going, this made me think of other stuff as well.... if logically I dont know what pushes me forward to live life, but some irrational feeling makes me to go, who is in control of my own mind?
To give one more example of this last idea : I feel like i have no control of my thoughts either, ideas just pop in my head without me choosing to do it, memories just come to surface without me consciously choosing to do so! Even at work , stuff that I study years ago, just pops up in my head when i have a problem to solve that needs that information, but i dont remember knowing that at all! after i remember that i know that , than i know that i know it for sure, but i didnt choose to remember it ( i hope that last bit wasnt hard to comprehend hahahah). All of that uncontrollable thoughts inevitably end up influencing on my actions and my speech, thus leading me to the conclusion that i have no control of neither my thoughts, nor actions, nor speech! I am a mere observer of some kind of movie called life? Even all of those concepts that are all created from the reality that i experience,thus is it even valid to have this questions if i dont even know if this reality is "real"?

in summary: Is it normal to feel like you have no control of your own thoughts, thus your actions , and consequently that you are basically an observer of your "life"? Also, is it normal that you feel like you have no idea if reality is real at all? (supposing that the definition of something being real is that it exists independently of you existing or not)
Am I crazy for being in such a battle with this kind of reasoning for so long? (4 years)
wtf?
i hope the are not many english mistakes, its not my first language. I appreciate if someone could give a feedback about this! thanks!

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  • Kevinevan
    6 years ago

    I think the same way.

    Since we can't percieve anything without our brains interpreting it (well we only think our brains do, who knows.) everything is subjective to ourselves and thus nothing we see, hear or do is actually real. Just a filtered interpretation.

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    • amicray
      6 years ago

      yeah thats the idea, and that line of thought can lead u to so many other more interesting thoughts!

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  • Alduin
    6 years ago

    You speaking and remembering and acting without consciously thinking about it first is because these tasks are usually done subconsciously. This is because you've been existing all your life your brain knows how to complete actions so easily it'll just do them, usually without much prompting, but a task you've never done before require constant thought.
    Additionally I know that I exist so I assure you the world is real. Now you've only got my word on that but think about this: There's so much that you probably don't know about the world around you (that's not a diss, I don't know much about the world either) that it has to be real. Say if this was your coma dream then things you aren't currently aware exist wouldn't exist and things wouldn't continue happening in other parts of the world as your brain wouldn't concern itself with them and, finally, you'd never be able to learn anything knew because everyone around you could only know what you know and nothing more.

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    • amicray
      6 years ago

      The very fact that my brain works without my own will, aka working "subconsciously" , is the thing that intrigues me the most, who is actually in charge here? that was one of the questions , what you said just adds more doubt on that topic hahahahah

      Regarding the second paragraph... How could you possibly know that things are actually happening in other parts of the world when you are not contemplating all of them at the same time? The ilusion could be created as soon as you would go after some information and then fade away as soon as you are not looking at that anymore.

      the final part: "you'd never be able to learn anything knew because everyone around you could only know what you know and nothing more."
      Well this also adds up to the other issue: I feel like i'm the observer of my life, that i'm the observer of my thoughts... that im not the true ruler of my own reality, to the point that feels like my mind is able to think without me willing to think on something specifically. So if i may not be the ruler of my own mind (as u said, it does stuff subconsciously) , then we open space to speculate about my own minds ability to fool myself, making me believe that i dont know stuff that i already know ( because as you said, if its me creating the reality, so i should know everything about it, right? seems logical)
      but what if we are defining mind as something that is the same as "me", but i may not be my mind.

      I mean, me and my mind share a "relationship" we could say, but maybe we are 2 different entities?

      then it goes down the spiral of thoughts that is the definition of the self hahahah, that im not gonna enter in that
      unless you feel like talking about it as well

      finally, just remembering, i dont think reality is fake or i think is real
      i just dont know hahahaha
      i also try to counter argument in favor of reality being real with the question "if reality is created in my own head, why i am not the ruler of everything? if i created seems logical that i would create a reality where i have a perfect life"
      that last question is kind of your statement "you'd never be able to learn anything knew because everyone around you could only know what you know and nothing more."
      follows the same principle of the creator-creation relationship
      But the thing is... what if im not the creator? like i said above: what if me and my mind are separate things that the border is too blurry to define, but still are 2 things not 1? hahahaha

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  • paramore93
    6 years ago

    Reality is subjective imo :P

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  • Nickvey
    6 years ago

    sensory organs , try some chocolate

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  • RoseIsabella
    6 years ago

    So you are experiencing some sort of existential angst I presume?

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    • amicray
      6 years ago

      well, putting it in a simply way... i guess so?

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