Am i going crazy??

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I don't know what's been wrong with me lately.. The past two days I've just been completely out of it. I've been really hostile. And one of my "friends" who meant alot to me about a year ago said something not even rude to me and I went OFF on them. I've been just imagining gore and fighting and everything, just fighting for yourself type of stuff. Suicide, blood, very strange. I can't stop thinking about just plain insanity and I just don't know what to do about this. Alot of stress has been written on my brain as well. I'm also mad about literally anything. You throw a pickle across the street and I'll literally get mad because it's a waste, or I'll want to crush the shit out of it because it's already on the ground. Also I should note I am not feeling suicidal.

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  • Koda
    8 years ago

    The most likely cause, as you surmised, is anxiety. Anxiety causes very real physiological symptoms which can range from a slight uneasiness in your stomach to a sense of intolerable tension in your muscles and your heart (you constantly feel intensely tweaked like something terrible is about to happen). If this is too prolonged, it can lead to a heart attack.

    Some people suffer from panic attacks, and though entirely unpleasant experiences in themselves (some people literally feel like they're going to die or explode during serious ones, and many people pass out), they can help relieve the tension once they're completely over. Other people find screaming or hysterically crying does the same thing. But others, like you, don't have these natural defense mechanisms to employ, so they just keep building up the internal anxiety until it severely affects their mental health, phyiscal health, or both.

    In you case, it seems to be seriously affecting your cognition. If you don't tackle this anxiety, you'll be driven to distraction with these thoughts and your anger. When you're anxious, irritability is taken to a whole other level. Even the slightest thing, as you mentioned, can set you off in a big way. It's not entirely under your control, but you should seek help before it gets worse. Having these violent thoughts persistently CAN lead to OCD, another type of personality disorder, a major panic disorder, or even (God forbid) psychosis.

    You've already taken the first important step of recognizing your symptoms as negatively affecting your life and the lives of others. You should make an appointment with a mental health professional as soon as possible. They'll be able to teach you calming techniques and may prescribe you something for anxiety, but most importantly they can help you figure out and deal with the causes of your anxiety. You need to get it all out, and find out what's at the core of your problems. You probably have many triggers, but it's usually one underlying factor that's the root of it all. This could be something you've repressed or buried.

    I'm not a professional myself, so don't take my word for it, but don't just ignore your problems, find out what's behind them. Good luck.

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  • [Old Memory]
    8 years ago

    For god sakes, see a therapist ASAP!

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