Am i gay for this man i don’t even know?

So I’ve been having so much trouble lately, this problem is affecting my life and my grades and I’m real angry with myself but I can’t stop.

There’s this cute ass man I found online, he’s so cute and it’s ruining my life. I’m supposed to be studying but I can’t help but stare at him because he’s literally the most precious thing I’ve ever saw in my life.

I’m a straight 19 year old male. But this man is making pencil bend.

I don’t even know his name, he just has this pink hair. He has the most plush lips and his eyes are the death of me.

I have only four pictures of him. He’s cute as fuck.
I come from a homophobic family so im scared that I’m gay.

I got the pictures from my sister by the way, she sent them without saying a thing and she refuses to tell me his name.

If anyone finds him thank you. Here are some details:

1st picture: him literally looking all glowey and shit with his pink hair and perfect face, and he’s wearing some striped jacket or whatever.

2nd picture: Him with blonde hair and some blue contacts I think. Some expensive red and black jacket, has some weird mic next to his lips and he’s wearing a choker

3rd picture: Hes wearing some sort of puppy hat just staring somewhere and it’s so adorable my heart hurts-

4th picture: he has brown hair. Wearing some red shirt with a white vest and hugging a pillow.

Facial features: small eyes, they’re like cat eyes but I’m not sure. Plump lips, light skin? Seems to have a shit ton of hair dye, obv asian, he looks girlish a lil bit