Am i depressed?

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I don't know what it feels like to be depressed and I've never talked to anyone about this. But if I was depressed , I know for a fact no one around me would even notice. I hate myself. I think that on some days I am pretty. Those days I still hate myself but I thank God that I can offer the world something today. Most days though I have terrible acne. The dermatologist said it's just the age I'm in. My breath smells terrible less than 30 minutes after I brush it. I brush very well with a tongue scraper and good toothpaste. I suspect I have 'dry mouth' and that's why it happens. When I brought it up to my doctor, he dismissed it due to my various other unknown illnesses he is trying to help me with. I guess personal interaction and self esteem is a Minor issue. My hair is falling out( the specialist suspects alopecia in which there is no cure) and my GI track stopped working(who knows why). So basically my whole life goal is to be normal. I'm tired of being made fun of and ostracized for the things I have no control over. The only person who knows about my problems is my parents because after I told my sister when my hair began to start falling out she used it against me in every argument (for example: oh please your so gross. at least my hairs not falling out) shit hurts. Trust me... But yeah I just feel like I'm failing as a person. My worst fear in life is disappointing others and I am tired of doing it. I cry myself to sleep when I think about my life. I quit everything. I stopped talking to people. I have no friends. I argue with my family. My parents only care that I don't embarrass them. I tried to talk to my dad about how I feel but he literally fell asleep on me mid sentence. I'm all alone in the world. I smile in everyone's face but anytime anything minor happens to me I swear in break down and want to kill myself. I can't take all of this bullshit anymore. But I won't kill myself because I need to go to heaven. I just want this to be over. I can't take being sick. I can't take being bad at everything. I can't take hoping people don't try and talk to me because I don't want to disappoint them. I swear I won't kill myself guys! I love God. I just hate earth. So don't send me suicide hotline crap

I think you are depressed 13
It's just normal teen anxiety 4
More than normal teen anxiety, but less than depression 4
I don't know 4
You just want attention 1
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  • RoseIsabella
    9 years ago

    Are you taking any medications? If you have to take any prescription drugs it would probably serve you well to see if hair loss or dry mouth are possible side effects of said medications.

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  • seakelp
    9 years ago

    talk to a therapist in addition to your doctor

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  • thr
    9 years ago

    Who can blame you for feeling down/depressed, with all those issues troubling you.

    Your parents should care more and your sister should not be so mean to you.

    Have you tried an elimination diet to treat your health problems. It's that's doable for you, that might be a good idea.

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