Am i crazy?

Nobody notices or anything but I don't ever really feel normal anymore. I feel weird and different (*unexplainable). Sometimes not very intensely but sometimes pretty intensely. And every once in awhile I have an episode where it's extremely intense. People try and talk to me and their words don't make sense. I'm unresponsive because it doesn't make sense. I'm very embarresed about how I'm acting and I think everyone can read it in my eyes how I feel, and I feel like people can read my brain. And then.. the scariest part is, somebody will say something and be completely NOT talking to me at all.. for instance "I understand what's going on here" and I get a flush of fear and anxiety and everything gets a lot worse feeling because I start thinking stuff like "You do? You do understand whats going on here? How do you know?" and I start freaking out. It hurts really bad too. It hurts to smile. I get really apathetic and sad. And feel very very guilty for not being happy for the people around me and feel guilty because I feel like they think it's their fault.
My friend asked me "Are you having anxiety?" and I got embarresed and scared and said "no".. then later I asked him why he said that and he said he didnt remember asking me that at all.
And there's nothing I can do to stop any of this.

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Comments ( 21 )
  • FlowerOfHope

    Do you use drugs?
    If not: you should see a psychiatrist.

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  • roadrunnerxo

    I feel like that too. I kind of feel like everyone else is on a totally different planet and sometimes I feel like I'm throwing everything off. I also feel bad sometimes when I seem not to care because I think it doesnt show on my face. But I'm learning now to just be myself, pay no mind to what other people think about you, it's hard I know, I've been there, but if you take it step by step, eventually you'll start to feel better and those feelings will go away. People will love you for who you are!If you don't feel sorry, you dont have to if its not there, it's not there. Like they say "You can't fight the tears that ain't comin." I still cry sometimes when I come home after being around a lot of people because I feel that embarrassment and feel like I've done something wrong, but I know I havent, I just have to learn to be completely free and natural. There is something you can do though sweetheart, dont be afraid to be yourself. The only things that matter and are true, is things that are truly "natural." just let go. <3

    I hope this helps.
    I'm going through the same thing.
    Stay strong,
    I would hug you...but this is on a computer <3

    :)

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  • somethingrecognizeable

    it sounds like you have quite bad anxiety resulting in episodes of derealization and depersonalization! that unexplainable feeling of feeling out of the loop, and being unable to translate the things around you as reality? I suggest you go the doctors for anxiety and try and explain the *unexplainable feelings of weirdness that you are experiencing as a result, they can then suggest what therapies or medicines might be beneficial?

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  • Ugh69

    Paragraphs are your friend.

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  • emicake

    dalmationUntoyourSoul , I had taken a lot of acid all at once without knowing what it really was before I started feeling this way. I know for a fact that it caused it. And I do feel long-term effects from it. But like I said in my last comment, I am feel much better than when I posted this. I don't feel insane anymore lol. But that was a very scary, lonely time for me.

    Be very careful what you put in your body everyone!

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  • emicake

    Pambambam, I am so sorry you're feeling this way... I just wanted to comment and tell you that I posted this a few years back, and I do feel much better now! There is hope for it getting better, I basically just worked through it.. Just try to stay positive and remember to think thoughts that make sense... Know that what you are going through, others do go through it too and it is normal (: its tough..But its something that can be fixed. Maybe talking to a professional would help you. Good luck!

    And thanks for all of the help everyone, I am feeling a lot better..

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  • pambambam

    omg! its like i wrote this! i feel the same way too. i feel that whatever i feel on the inside people can tell.i try not to get mad in front of people so people cant judge me. i feel people can read my thoughts. i get so anxious around people for no reason . you might need help. I know i can use it too.

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  • dalmationUntoyourSoul

    don't know if it's normal, but i've went through long phases of this. it still happens occaisionally but i try to laugh about it. it's almost like you have a head full of acid even though you haven't eaten any. and it happened before i had done drugs. it does seem kind of schizo-affective, as much as i hate psychology terms. i hope you can get on top of it without having to take brain drugs.

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  • BirdyMojo

    It seems like a mixture of depression and anxiety. I have never experienced that, but I can imagine. Feeling almost out of your body, not all there, nervous, anxious. I think it is depression and anxiety. I think you should talk to someone.

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  • applescruffs

    maybe you have anxiety problems. My friend had something like that, but now she takes pills that calm her down. And dont listen to the douches up there, Your not emo. You just want someone to understand.

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  • emicake

    Sooo... I don't know how long it's been but it's been atleast a year anddd! Just an update, I am feeling a lot better now. (: A LOT. I still dont feel completely, right. But, I have learned to deal with it and learned to just go with the flow.. I guess what I'm saying is I learned to like myself, and learned to go with the flow.. And yeah, I dont feel crazy anymore but I know that I did. Soo glad it's over, haha.
    Still can't smoke weed, because it comes back.

    Yep yep.

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  • alexlong

    yeah i know exactly what you mean

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  • lurvejazz

    You should really go to a psychologist...

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  • secretme

    Therapy. ;)

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  • emicake

    Do you know what shes taking?

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  • emicake

    I cant smoke weed anymore because of it, because it gets 100x worse when i'm high. >_< yeah something like that..

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    • bazookatruth

      You should probably seek professional help. What you describe sounds exactly what my sister was going through in high school and she was really bad to the point she wouldn't hardly leave the house. My parents finally got her to a therapist who got her on some meds and she leads a normal life now. The only problem I can see with her is she's hooked on these meds, but if it works then what the hey.

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  • bazookatruth

    The only time I've ever felt remotely close to what you're describing I was around people I didn't really know smoking high grade weed. I don't know, but it sounds like you have anxiety issues.

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  • holly24

    Darling, it sounds like you probably suffer from paranoid schizophrenia. It's treatable, but the sooner you see a doctor about it, the better.

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  • blueizbabe07

    I do this too. Do you believe in past lives? Sometimes people dont feel connected to thier"new body or vehicle rather". I suggest you go to youtube, and look up Dr.Delbert blair supreme beings 1-10. Dont take meds for this! You have a gift, you are not souless! Only a few Souls are reincarnated. Be happy with it, and learn how to look deeper inside your self! i do this everyday, and at first it can seem scary. But its just the "real" you waking up. :)

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  • dimadog1

    Gothic
    Emo
    some other sh!t maybe
    still its awesome being emo

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