Am i controlling?
So my husband has a habit of watching too much porn and he also had erectile dysfunction and performance anxiety. I have a very high libido, I offered to give him blow jobs and do anything he wants but he still wasn't budging. I suspect he'd even watch porn when I was in the kitchen making our dinner. His porn watching affected out sex life and he wasn't super hard when we had sex. After several screaming matches and me basically telling him I feel like he's undervaluing me and making me feel unattractive. I'm attractive, I used to be a model. I'm tall and thin and people are always saying how lucky he is.
I've caught him watching porn even after fucking me. He's confessed to watching it in the bathroom but said he'd watch when I wasn't home but the thing is, I'm always home when he is. I felt so disgusted and disrespected by this behavior. He said he'd watch porn to overcome his performance anxiety in the bedroom. Doesn't make sense.
We've had the sex conversation so many times now, it's actually so exhausting because all I've been asking him is one thing. Don't watch porn. Don't make me feel worthless but he kept doing it.
He took his phone with him in the shower and that would drastically affect my mood. I went from being in a good mood to being triggered and on the verge of tears by the time he came out of the shower. I asked him to not take his phone in the shower and he obliged. Is this controlling?
These days our sex life is on fire. He's super hard when we have sex. And he's more hornier for the real thing but I hate how I have to keep tabs on him.