Am i controlling?

So my husband has a habit of watching too much porn and he also had erectile dysfunction and performance anxiety. I have a very high libido, I offered to give him blow jobs and do anything he wants but he still wasn't budging. I suspect he'd even watch porn when I was in the kitchen making our dinner. His porn watching affected out sex life and he wasn't super hard when we had sex. After several screaming matches and me basically telling him I feel like he's undervaluing me and making me feel unattractive. I'm attractive, I used to be a model. I'm tall and thin and people are always saying how lucky he is.

I've caught him watching porn even after fucking me. He's confessed to watching it in the bathroom but said he'd watch when I wasn't home but the thing is, I'm always home when he is. I felt so disgusted and disrespected by this behavior. He said he'd watch porn to overcome his performance anxiety in the bedroom. Doesn't make sense.

We've had the sex conversation so many times now, it's actually so exhausting because all I've been asking him is one thing. Don't watch porn. Don't make me feel worthless but he kept doing it.

He took his phone with him in the shower and that would drastically affect my mood. I went from being in a good mood to being triggered and on the verge of tears by the time he came out of the shower. I asked him to not take his phone in the shower and he obliged. Is this controlling?

These days our sex life is on fire. He's super hard when we have sex. And he's more hornier for the real thing but I hate how I have to keep tabs on him.

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  • Mammal-lover

    I would take him to a addiction place. Porn addiction is a thing and it ruins lives. I'm glad porn doesn't do much for me

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    • I've suggested it but he says he doesn't have a problem. He claims the porn watching was because of his performance anxiety and erectile dysfunction. So basically, he would watch porn to check if he could get an erection because there have been times when porn didn't even make his dick hard. I find it hard to believe someone would watch porn only to "check"

      He went to the doctor 8 months ago and was given a Viagra prescription as a way for him to regain his confidence. We used that for a bit but when it ran out, he didn't go back to get more. He's only 25.

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      • Inkmaster

        Everyone has their excuses for not giving up their addictions. A thing worth pointing out is that his exessive porn use is likely the cause of his erectile dysfunction.

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      • Mammal-lover

        Yea I'm not an expert but that sounds like porn addiction. Honestly I would tell him you will leave him if he doesnt cut back on porn and get help. Ween him down something. Gonna be a long sexless relastionship otherwise.

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      • GaelicPotato

        You don't seem very understanding.

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        • How so?

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          • GaelicPotato

            I think you should just talk.

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            • Inkmaster

              She tried and he wouldn't listen.

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  • noneoftheabove

    It’s actually a myth that porn causes ED. There is zero concrete evidence to prove this is true. It’s more likely your smelly vagina that is making him soft.

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    • Well my vagina is not smelly.

      You sound like you have a stick up your arse.

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      • CDmale4fem

        Would you be willing to try anything in your ass ? It sounds to me that you just want to be appreciated, loved for you, not his fantasy of the porn girl. But you dont sound controlling to me. You want what we all want, in the words of the late Freddie Mercury, i need somebody to love (and love you in return).
        A female friend i have known for about 50 years, (i changed her diapers when she was itty bitty. The guy she has been with for about 6 yrs had a texting relationship with a girl in another country. She says their sex life in nonexistant. He would text the far away friend and then he would rather and she said he would just jack off.
        Just saying because there are so nany reasons that guys dont want sex, like they are sick somehow. But seriously glad you both getting it together.

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    • Inkmaster

      No, it isn't. I can testify for a fact that it isn't.

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  • momgetthecamera

    You're not being controlling. He's looking at women he doesn't know online and flooding himself with dopamine that will sap him of motivation and good moods, as he experiences easy, effortless pleasure consistently, he will become numbed. Just like an opiate- another flood of dopamine that he will become dependent on, as it will be harder to let go of. P0rnography is often degrading to women, and makes sex an object or an action rather than a tender interaction- it really ruins romance. It pushes the boundaries, and trafficked children and adults have been found on p0rnhub, as there are no regulations to upload- this includes r4pe. I read a case of this happening, a missing girl was found on there.
    It erodes values- it started off as photos in magazines, then full on nudes, then sexual actions, then ACTUAL torture, like beating and electrocution, and near incest, with the step-bro/ step-mom fetishes- next, we will see our men flooded with genuine incest and torture. Many of the models pose as minors, and dress to look that way too, picked for their features.
    There has been a rise in cases of 'sex games gone wrong' in which many women have died, and sex in which the men spit on women and beat them, as this media has given them the impression that all women are ok with that because porn says so. Just look it up on the BBC.
    Your husband is more likely to become a cross dresser too- people who get off to porn of the female body are more likely to associate the female body with pleasure, and therefore get off on crossdressing- or cucking themselves, as they learn to get off watching another man with a desirable woman, instead of being with the woman.
    Most Western males these days are exposed to porn at the age of 11- before a first kiss, their eyes are flooded with 'slut gets nailed/peed on', whatever. This changes the perception of healthy sex. Notice how slang about sex has changed too?
    It used to be 'rumpy pumpy' and 'making love'- now, we have violent terms, like 'bang', 'screw', 'smash'. Porn has completely polluted healthy sexuality.
    Furthermore, your internet service provider can see the data packages/information going in and out of phones. Privacy is an illusion. If you're American, remember that the NSA has a backdoor to your devices. Tell him this.

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  • megadriver

    I wouldn't say you're controlling. What he does sucks. Porn does take away the spice from a relationship.

    What you did is normal and expected. After all, you deserve to be happy and satisfied too. And as your husband, he should be there for you.

    I would never substitute my girlfriend for porn XD
    I like the real deal way too much.

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  • Inkmaster

    You don't seem controlling to me.

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    • The phone thing isn't controlling?

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      • Grunewald

        Well, a little, but only out of desperation. Not abnormally so, given the circumstances you've described.

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  • trexagireve

    Just lock him in chastity, it is the only real therapy for his illness!!

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  • bigbudchonga

    He may well actually be using it to overcome performance anxiety or some problem with his dick. A lot of dick problems are psychological.

    Real pussy is way better than porn; I can't see why he would be watching it other than why he states he is. Honestly, if he is watching for that reason then I bet he feels really humiliated with you moaning at him about it.

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  • donteatstuffoffthesidewalk

    whats with the last sentence that contradicts the resta the post?

    what happened? did he stop with the porn? did yall nag him into submission? is he watchin more porn? takin boner pills? eatin soup madea tiger dicks? what the fuck?

    this whole thing makes no sense

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  • Unknown_player

    Porns disgusting tbh it's a last resort for me I put my own imagination above that and the imagination is a powerful thing..maybe by spicing up things in the bedroom you don't always have to be completely naked try taking control, riding him in your best,fanciest bra, or making him move your panties aside to fuck you, just in general a lot of foreplay can be great for you and him

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    • GaelicPotato

      Porn is pretty swell tbh

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    Sounds like he is a pussy! He needs to be a man and fuck you like a man should.

    Maybe you are the dominant one in the relationship and he is more feminine. Just punch him in the face then grab his dick and tell him to fuck you, maybe a good rage fuck might help things.

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    • Ant_Jesus

      Excuse me there buddy, you might want to calm your 'raging male hormones' there

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        I make no apologies

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    • Unknown_player

      I don't think bdsm is technically condoning of violence, it's being sadistic or masochistic in different ways so not by punching him but building up on your comment, maybe they should become the dominant one. Ain't anything wrong with it

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