Am i being taken advantage of by my own family?

Hey, so for some coincidence I started writing down a kind of history of my life, and when I was at 13 I wrote this was the worst, then I got to 15 and couldn't even remember things, it is so unbelievably hard. As a person it gets so confusing socially, and with school, and with a crazy home environment to say the least it is really unfair. You deserve love you deserve encouragement, and so much of it. Your whole life you should have been getting these things, and its not your fault at all that you weren't. I'm trying to say the right things but I remember for me the pain was so bad I couldn't hear anything. But things do get better, they get better and better.
But right now I just wish that there are people that can listen to you. Anyone that can hear you out. You deserve so much better and so much more.
I won't tell you what choices to make, and this may sound heartless, but your family members are not your responsibility. Of course I'm not saying go out of your way to be mean, but if you want to simply leave them alone, you shouldn't feel guilty at all. But I'm sure you will figure out a solution. Hang in there and thank yourself for doing this for yourself.
I'm 25 now and am telling you your life will change for the better in ways you can't possibly imagine. Everything will be alright.

Rayb12 is right: you are not responsible for the happiness and well-being of your family.

It truly sucks that, at the age of fifteen, you feel you need to take over the role of your departed mother.

It's right and normal for you to care about your family, but you can't make their lives better and you can't make them feel happier. What you're discovering at an early age is that, actually, it is simply impossible for any of us to _make_ someone else feel happy. Everyone decides whether or not they are going to be happy. Nobody can make you happy, and you can't make someone else happy.

Girls in particular are trained from a young age that doing what others want is the proper role of women, but this is incredibly bad in so many ways.

If you were truly happy being in the role you've taken on, that would be fine. Some people would thrive on that sort of pressure (although probably not too many fifteen year olds). You clearly don't have the personality and strength to cope with the job, and that is not your fault. You've just bitten off far more than you are able to chew.

It's easy for me - a complete stranger - to say this, but I don't think your family is taking advantage of you; I think you are _allowing_ your family to take advantage of you.

At your age, it's probably not possible for you to pack up and leave - although if you there are people in your extended family who you think are sane and caring, you might look into that possibility. Assuming you have to continue to live with these people, the best you can do is try to detach yourself as much as possible. When they say horrible things to you, just consider that the source is someone who has serious problems. If they try to involve you in their dramas, do your best to avoid getting entangled.

Your primary duty in life at this point is to look after your own physical and mental well-being. As a fifteen year old, you have no legal or moral responsibility to put that second to what others want.

Can you get involved with activities outside the home that keep you away from the drama as much as possible, and allow you to focus on more healthy and forward-looking concerns?

I don't know if you're being taken advantage of, but your family is messed up and you're too young to handle all of this! My advice is to go live with a mentally stable relative.

It's not fair on you to have to feel solely responsible for their happiness. It does sound like they're taking advantage of your insecurities and kind nature, and it really isn't good for them to say they value themselves over you or that you're worthless. You're doing a lot for them by the sounds of it and you should be able to take care of yourself as well, at least.

The only really advice I can think of is to try to focus on yourself at the same time (and by "at the same time", I mean that if you can still help out in little doses then you can if you want). Remember that you do matter too. Maybe if you can take yourself out of the house for a bit (it's been suggested above that you try finding external activities that can get you out for a little, and I'd definitely suggest that. Especially if there are clubs/activities that you enjoy doing that are available to you).

You're not being taken advantage of. They can't take care of themselves is all it is. Don't deem yourself responsible for them. Try to survive a few more years with them and move out. I don't think I would blame you for cutting off contact with them either.

my dad picked my mom because she was some hot pussy but after she had children she was not so hot any longer. short story , you dont pick your family they do it for you. some times you win some times you lose . i three years you can pick a new family