Am i a selfish loser?

I dont know who told you your problem didnt matter compared to others....but they are wrong. Now it is true that there is always someone worse off then you but that doesn't mean your problems dont matter.

What you should do is realize there are others who probably have it worse and find positive things in your life to be thankful for. Such as a good meal or a warm bed...maybe you were able to watch your fav show. Your focused too much on the negative.

Seeking professional help could help you with your lack of self asteam and cutting problems. Just because today isn't good doesn't mean tomorrow wont be.

Before you do something drastic, consider this...
People care about you. Family, special someone (if you have one), friends, etc...

You can fix this. Whenever I'm down, I get mad. Then I get shit done! How I got my raise. How I got my place in the university dorm. Nobody is going to sit there and give me shit. Fuck 'em! Either they play ball, or they fuck off and I find another option.

I say, suck it up and rev it up!
You will feel better.

you have just as much right as anyone else to be angry/sad/scared or any other emotion. Just because others might appear to be hav ing a harder time doesn t mean your feelings are not valid....i think you need another person to help you , a professional

Those who realize their flaws are the strongest. Not trying to bring you down or anything, just stating the truth. Many people have flaws, no one is perfect in any sense. I, for one, have smarts. That's all I have, but sometimes I wish I didnt, so I would know how to interact with others on their level of intellect. But I'm not letting an anti-social life control me. No. You have to keep pushing, no one is a loser, well...except for those who rape and murder. Those are losers. Besides the point though. Things will get better, you don't know what the future has in store for you. Honestly. You can't predict it, no one can, and only you have the option to alter it. All you need is a little motivation.

Just because somebody thinks their pain is greater than yours doesnt mean that your pain doesnt matter. It sounds like you have anxiety and you should get professional help, especially if it stems from abuse from a parent (im not sure what you were referring to about your mother). But i could tell you, regardless of what your issue was, anxiety makes it 100x worse. Until that person has walked in your shoes, dont let them tell you how to deal with your pain.

Some days I wake up and I want to kill myself.
Other days I feel nothing but the joy and wonder of the world, and am happy to live.
And you know what? I am reminded constantly how worse other people have it. Even the one that I (used to) love more than myself had it worse than me. And then she broke my heart and left me and I have to hate her because I can't forget her. But none of that matters anymore! "I can't help it", I say to myself. Things just happen, and we are here regardless. All that we can affect is what will happen next. You find something else to love, and you put the light in yourself because no one else will.
When you think about it, everything is full of love. Some people love to hate, others love to forgive, and then some would love an end. And the end of pain does not have to be the end of life. Do me a favor and just search within yourself to find something to love, ok? Something good, something that makes you happy, just because you can :)
Smilez :)

Damn, sorry but I can't read that shit. Are you or are you not a selfish loser?

You know what you need to do. You are just afraid to take that next step. That is what will keep you stuck in the in between. Just keep moving forward, make the changes you need to make, keep telling yourself your getting closer, you could almost be there. And don't be afraid.