Am i a psychopath? iin?
I have an issue that is bothering me.
For the past 3 months I just felt like shit. I mean, mentally, not physically. I went to to a shrink (I still see her, on a bi weekly basis). I had all sorts of fears of different mental conditions. Firstly bipolar disorder, then scizhophrenia (For no real reason), then psychopathy. The problem is I can't really let go of the thought that I might be a psychopath.
My main question is this: Could I become a psychopath without really having the background for it? Both my parents are alive and aren't psychopaths and have always treated me well, I wasn't abused as a child, I never harmed small animals or people as a child, but I feel as though I lack empathy. I sometimes have random urges of hurting people but they're more like mental images than real urges, and I understand that's pretty normal.
Also, I have a high functioning autistic older brother, I don't know if that matters.
I just feel like all the nice things I do are just because I don't mind doing them. I don't mind helping people or doing whatever people ask me to do because I don't really have any urges of my own. Ther'es nothing I REALLY REALLY REALLY want to do. I let go of things easily. I feel like once I'll have something I really want and wouldn't want to give up on it I'd do whatever it takes to get it. But that's not the case right now.
I feel like I'm never being myself and keep emulating other people, it's just that lately I'm more self-aware of it.
I've heard before that being worried about being a psychopath is a good sign of not being a psychopath, but I'm not even sure if I'm worried or just curious.
Please answer truthfully.