Am i a horrible person?

You're not horrible, but you definetly are an asshat.

You go as far as to say you were raped simply because you were verbally abused? Alot of people get verbally abused, that doesn't give you the right to claim to have been raped. Do you honestly think rape victims would prefer being raped rather than just be shouted at?

Sure, you may have your feelings hurt, but you claimed something far worse.

In my opinion, you were seeking attention simply because being shouted at wasn't being taken as a huge deal, so you had to up the bad things that happened to you, even if that means lying about it.

Do I think you're a horrible person? No. Do I think you deserve my respect or anyone elses? No.

Thats a bit f**ked up. No offence. You shouldnt have said anything if you felt like they werent going to understand. I only say this because i was molested as a child and raped as a teen. Very few people know this and the few people that know ive told them to not feel sympothic for me. Ive been verbally, and physically abused also. But i never use it as some sort of pity party for myself or for people to to feel for me. If it wasnt for the s**t that ive been through, it wouldnt have made me who i am today. And actually im greatful for everything thats happened to me. But some people react to things differently. To me, its in the past and thats where it stays, dont let it rule my life. Im only saying it to you because its nothing to lie bout.

Its not horrible, but its not right either. Both are traumatic experiences, but you cannot begin to compare one to the other because of the enormous amount of difference in severity. Hell, I wish verbal abuse was the worst thing that ever happened in my life, so consider yourself lucky. Also there is nothing wrong with having problems because you were verbally abused, if youve never faced them or dealt with them in a way that gives you closure then you have a right to be troubled by it, but not to lie.

My advice to you would be to seek therapy, be completely honest with them and talk your shit out. Dont let them medicate you if you can help it, most of that shit just turns you into a zombie. And make an effort in your life to be honest, with yourself and others around you.

nope not horrible you felt pain and tried to get someone to be there for you.. and were afraid to receive the same treatment of those you trusted... but hey you have come far away in feeling bad about it but do you have the courage to tell them?
Even if you don't you are not horrible... sometimes pain does weird things to you...

Nah. But tell them the truth. And if they dont take it seriously. Make them see the pain. Make them see every agonizing word. Every time you where put down. Put that pain into them. And make them see. If they still dont listen. Fuck em up.

You're a horrible person. No one should EVER lie about something so serious.

Verbal abuse can mess up your head for a long time. Counseling might help.

I wouldn't say that you're a bad person, but it seems like you have a far too large (and most definitely creepy and abnormal) need for attention.

9-10 on the fucked-upness scale.

If you feel depressed, or like something is wrong, it is understandable to lie about something to alert someone that something is wrong. Its not good to lie about something so serious, but its normal to act out to show someone that you're serious if you feel that someone is wrong. If you feel badly over an extended period of time without a cause, talk to your doctor.

Don't let your friends tell you that you're just being an attention whore, they may be your friends, but only you know what is going on in your head.

Horrible, but all too common I've had chicks tell me that they were raped before (mostly the biggest whores though)
I didn't believe them mostly because they were so open about it. Like c'mon man if I got raped, I wouldn't tell ANYBODY except for the police, nor would I wanna talk about it.

I'm sure that I am a lot older than you, and although I'm not grateful for the verbal abuse I suffered every day of my life and even now sometimes if I answer the phone, I can say that it has made me stronger. I have never worried what people say or think about me coz in my eyes they are all amateurs compared to my mother :o)

Use their rotten words in a positive way and stop dwelling on it.

girl. but that isnt funny, guys get raped too.

For the record I did tell my friends I lied. I didnt tell them why though and they still didnt think it was that horrible. I have no idea how someone could understand doing that for no reason so I dont know if theyre faking not being mad at me or if they really dont understand how bad that is. Hence why I posted this.

"Horrible" isn't the right word for your situation. Dishonest maybe, but it wasn't a horrible thing to do. You probably should stop telling that lie though.

Are you a guy or a girl?
If you were a guy and you told me you are sad because you were raped long ago, I would have a hard time trying not to laugh, sorry ;p