Am i a fragile narcissist?

Im an 18 year old senior in high school and im beginning to think im a fragile narcissist. First of all i have a best friend who i have been friends with for 6 years. The problem is secretly i envy and feel resent when he is successful at something. I hate when this happens because i feel horrible inside but i cant help it. Its only with my best friend no one else idk why but i feel competition with him all the time. I find myself fantasizing about being successful and having a girlfriend but thats because i have never had a girlfriend before. Im shy and very sensitive like if someone jokes around with me ill feel discomfort but i mean i understand they are just joking around so i go along with it but i cant help but feel a little discomfort inside. I feel inferior to people but idk if this is Because im insecure which i am. I get very lonely and bored at home i just want to hang out with friends. I dont have alot of friends. The reason i think im a narcissust is because little things offend me like when i get ignored, or things dont go the way i said but usually im able let the anger go and not affect me. No one has ever told me im narcissistic but i feel like i might be.when people dont notice me it makes me mad but i dont let it affect me. When i see my peers on social media going out and having fun i get sad because im inside my house doing nothing. How can i just not care about popularity. Maybe i am more narcissistic than average but im scared that it will ruin my chances of getting a girlfriend. Im shy and scared to approach women and im afraid of rejection when i do im crushed and feel like that for 1 or 2 days then i forget about it. Is it normal to feel this way at my age in highschool? Am i a narcissist or not?