All i want to be is beautiful

All I want is to be beautiful, tall, thin and with long blonde hair like a fashion model. I don’t have a nice figure, I’m short (5’0) and although I’m a healthy weight (95lbs) I still have chubby legs and a tummy that sticks out.

It hurts that my body is not desirable or attractive and guys often overlook me. I didn’t even have a first date or kiss until after I left high school.

One of my favourite movies is The Neon Demon and I dream of being beautiful like one of those girls and living in that world. I never want to have children because I couldn’t stand to inflict the same faults that I have onto them.

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  • donteatstuffoffthesidewalk

    them model bitches is freaky lookin always has a pissed off expression and more maintenance than a flooded out british supercar

    ill take a chick what can fix a tractor

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    • Moe_Moe_Kyun

      They say the pissed off expression is supposed to be a "fierce" look but most the time it just looks pissed off to me too. I don't understand what the modeling world has against people looking happy

      If feels like some of the only times I see models smiling is if they're in a Kmart or target store ad magazine

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  • dimwitted

    This is a very sad post. If you were on an island alone, do you think you would still feel the same about yourself? I ask because it seems you are letting others influence your self worth and self esteem.

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  • Petersburg

    It turns out that everyone is different ...

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    • Wellyoudliketoknoweh

      That name though haha
      U Russian or just liked that one anime?

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  • You sound perfect enough to me.

    I doubt how you see yourself is what others see cause idk someone who finds thick thighs unattractive. I’m one inch taller than you and 18 pounds more. My legs can look kinda thick sometimes that I notice, my stomachs pretty flat but it has a few curves cause it’s a stomach and will. I have long blonde hair that’s natural but idk if that in particular helps my dating life. I’ve never had a problem on dating with my size it seems like my size has been fairly easy with it actually. A lot of guys seem to be into short girls and I can see why, but also I’m shorter than like every guy just pretty much an open option. I’m skinny enough where I get people commenting on it and telling me to eat a cheeseburger but those who look truly unhealthy come off as unattractive it don’t look right. I’m considered in good health and that’s all I care about. If anything I sometimes wish I could gain more and had more control over gaining or loosing.

    There’s always things someone may dislike about their looks but imo you sounds attractive tho I’m sure my opinion wouldn’t matter. You shouldn’t worry or spend time day dreaming on something like this what you describe sounds like how someone should look you sound normal. If you learned to enjoy what you have and gain some confidence in it you’d be surprised the difference it can make. Embrace them cute short legs. Models seem like they are images of what’s beautiful but so many look like they have eating disorders and legitimate problems because some do. That’s not a goal it just makes me sad. Having curves is healthy it’s a body you can’t have a stomach perfectly flat you will have curves. Chicken legs that look like straight bone and skin vs a leg that looks like a leg. I’m not even much into legs but thick legs can be pretty fucking hot. I feel like a lot of images you wish you had is more put into your head, trust me you should love what you have cause it’s a million times better than unhealthy models.

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  • Boojum

    I've never found women with bodies like those of prepubescent boys attractive, so female models have never done anything good for me. Most of them probably have reasonably attractive faces under all the skilfully applied makeup, but if I ever met one, I think the only urge she'd stir in me is the desire to offer to cook her a nice dinner.

    I'm sure I'm not the only man in the world who feels this way, so you shouldn't believe all the crap about the ideal female body shape constantly pushed in subtle and blatant ways by companies trying to sell you shit.

    You say you're short; there are guys who would probably consider you cute just for that alone. You say your legs are chubby; there are guys who would love your curvy legs. You say your tummy protrudes; there are guys who would consider your tummy womanly and very sexy.

    And there are lots of guys who wouldn't give a damn about any of those things if you were positive about your body, positive about your life, positive about the guy you're with and just generally fun to be with.

    However, there's little chance you'll ever meet guys like that if you walk around feeling fugly and undesirable. Guys are generally much worse than women at picking up subtle non-verbal signals, but if it's blatantly obvious from how you move, how you hold yourself and how you dress that you hate your body, many guys will pick up on that and they'll tend to agree with that self-assessment.

    I think you need to stop believing all the utter crap you've been told all your life about what the ideal woman looks like. Accept that you have the body you have, find some things you like about it, and learn how to emphasise those features so you can feel more positive about yourself when you look in the mirror. If a guy is so shallow that he can't see the good points about the person you are and all he notices is that you're not tall, don't have legs like matchsticks, and your body fat is greater than 2%, then that's his problem, not yours.

    Constantly longing to look like someone else is unhealthy. If you persist with this, you're likely to come to your senses someday, look back on your life and regret all the time you've wasted and all the opportunities for happiness that you've missed.

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    • d0esnormalmatter

      Not all guys like the freaky skinny models. I like some meat on them bones.

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  • ellnell

    Everyone has their insecurities. I am naturally thin and wish I had more curves, big butt and more fat in general but nothing helps.
    Great thing is there is a type for everyone. Models show the mainstream beauty ideal but everyone dont prefer them just like I dont find all stereotypically hot male actors attractive, far from.

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  • DIO

    Eat less. Problem solved.

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    • I eat two meals a day and I try to stick to healthy foods and I’m in the bottom end of the healthy weight category. If I lost much more weight, I’d end up underweight and unhealthy

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      • DIO

        How can you have chubby legs and a tummy then?? Are they really chubby or do YOU find them chubby?

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        • I have small boobs and quite thin arms so I guess I just store more weight on my lower body.

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          • DIO

            Well that's weird...
            Are the other females in your family like you?

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            • Wellyoudliketoknoweh

              How is that weird
              Ever heard of different body types
              There are also 3 different types of metabolisms
              The one that stores fat in the lower half is my fave actually, it’s got those female curves and can still rock any top for a long time without the boobs affected by age
              I dunno I just like it, it looks nice

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  • 19sammi91

    Ypu are not the only one there... I have been a big girl for about 15 years now.. the most I've weighed is 130kgs and I havent loved my body for long, long time.. I too though would love to be skinny.. I dont care if I'm not beautiful but just want to be healthy and skinny.. I also didnt kiss or date a guy till after school too so I know how feel..

    I know you wanna be beautiful, tall and skinny bit the first step to get to that point is to love yourself first.. I've been losing weight for the last few weeks now and slowly starting to feel better for it..

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  • LOLFanProductions

    You want to be "beautiful"

    Well if you mean looking fake af, than go ahead! Like GOD FORBID IF YOU HAVE BIGGER LEGS AND A BELLY?!

    If anything, THAT'S REAL!

    Physical appearance is fueled by intellectual appearance. Let me give you a scenario that actually happened.

    I'm a woman who is big. Plus I have huge wrists, hands, and feet. I didn't focus on attraction until I was 16. Even so, I got friendzoned 3 times during my senior high school years. It all changed when I was 18. I tried online dating and that's how I found my first boyfriend. Cut to the chase, we broke up a year later after we dated.

    After that, I've been in 6 relationships with very little time to enjoy the "single life". Hell, I've even noticed that not only guys wanted me, but a couple of girls were attracted to me too! Eventually after my sixth relationship, I found my mate. Our first date was at a carnival. Long story short, he is now my fiance.

    The lesson of my experience is to appreciate your body for what it is. THAT'S how you'll find beauty.

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  • leggs91200

    A lot of men really love petite women. Lestat565 said it best though.

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  • Ns3164

    You need to learn to love yourself

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  • Lestat565

    Beauty is subjective. Don’t worry about outside beauty worry about the inside. Learn confidence. A girl I know is fat. Fat legs, fat arms, fat everything. But she gets guys because she’s confident and doesn’t care about what anyone else thinks.

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  • Wellyoudliketoknoweh

    Oh dear them beauty standards....
    I think you need to find your own, because a lot of what u describe is how u think the people around u perceive beauty

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  • libertybell

    Aww,you shouldn't feel that way!

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