Advice to younger self

STOP BEING A CUNT!!!

Don't smoke

Make the most of your time with your parents, you never know what is around the corner.

That not all drugs are bad and the people who take them aren't necessarily evil.

And, that you could avoid years of unnecessary suffering at the hands of severe mental illness and learning disorders by experimenting with psychedelics, especially olive leaf tea.

Don't be afraid to live life, think for yourself, ask questions, learn, and be yourself.

Don't be so extreme in your ideals.

Study up on libertarianism, instead of half understanding politics, stereotyping people by their political beliefs, and parroting liberal BS.

Don't get into feminism.

Don't fret about your sexuality in regards to your religion. One day, you'll find peace.

Stop thinking that no one loves you, and getting super suicidal over this. There's someone out there who loves and cares about you so much except you're too blind to see it. Your family loves you too, even if their actions have said otherwise. Even your fraternal family cares about you, despite being told otherwise.

Anorexia is death and nothing to be glamourised. This is no exaggeration. You're going to damage your mind and body if you keep this up. Plus your growth is going to get stunted and you won't grow again until you're 19. You'll spend many years of your life being malnourished from malabsorption, this too will stunt your growth.

When you turn 20 you'll start having a series of growth spurts. Your feet will go from a size 6 in boys to where they currently are, at a size 8.5 in women's. Try not to panic too much.

You'll be a healthy weight, while still retaining your slender physique and fast metabolism, and, you'll develop muscles!

Don't pine for years over a gay guy that you'll never be with. It's not worth it.

Sometimes, you can be a pompous little b*tch without even realizing it. You need to be mindful of how your actions represent you.

Get that beehive out of your @$$ and learn to relax, open your heart and mind. You're so anal retentive towards just about everything. Practically, everything is black and white with you. You're too rigid and extreme. You don't realize that you're exactly what you hate the most: a close-minded individual.

Somehow, some of your peers will actually find you attractive and develop the hots for you.

The special someone I previously mention, a female, you'll be in love with this person for almost a decade but, completely in denial. You'll stay in denial and pine over this person for an amount of time equal to the amount of years that you've known them. You'll learn that the feeling is mutual but, she feels that it would be for the best if the two of didn't act on these feelings. You'll think that your life would be over if she weren't to receiprocate but, it's not. It's okay. You'll actually end up respecting her wisdom, because, romantically speaking, it wouldn't have been a healthy relationship. You'll still be friends and get to explore other platonic relationships.

As for whether you'll be "forever alone", I seriously doubt it. But at 20, you still haven't dated anyone yet and you aren't really looking for anyone either. Plus, you're emotionally crippled when it comes to personal social interactions. *sighs*

Don't fret about your sexuality and gender, in general. I could tell you what you'll end up identifying as but I know how hard-headed and resistant to advice you're, and that you'll end up trying to defy all of the advice I tried to bestow upon you. (etc.)

Your mind is the mountain before you.

Don't waste so much time trying to change others that are no good for you, all the while neglecting yourself.

Finish college.

Don't waste six years on that person that never loved you in the first place.

Don't be so shy, people will like you for who you are, weird and all.

The Bipolar diagnoses will grip your life, but you don't have to let it define you and rule you.

Don't let the fact that your father isn't around cause so much hurt and damage in your life.

Save your money, stay motivated, don't become complacent because it's comfortable.

Love yourself and be proud of who you are.

Stay away from IIN. It will suck you in and you will never escape.

1. Read more, and do so more widely.

2. Looks aren't everything, so don't worry about how ugly you are.

3. Don't assume Youtube is a place where you can find intelligent discussion.

4. In fact, the internet is full of idiots. Don't buy into their stupidity.

5. Go to the library.

6. Quit doting on your imaginary girlfriend(s) (I know you've had plenty of them, and you will have plenty more).

7. Quit daydreaming your life away - and the daydreams that you have are stupid anyway.

8. Get over that reactionary streak you've got in you, you stupid misogynistic cracker.

9. Don't get caught jerking off in public, you little autist piece of shit.

10. For the love of God, stop talking to yourself/mouth-breathing (you know what I'm talking about); that shit is bad for the development of your jaw and you will need extensive orthodontic work to sort out what you're doing.

11. Practice your art more.

12. Stock up on Amazon gift cards, your books will actually be way cheaper like that.

Get into more activities, don't cry over boys, and stay away from a website called Is It Normal.

Don't smoke.

You'll get a car. You'll get plenty of cars. Check the oil in the Thunderbird regularly.

You are way more capable than you think you are. Just chill the fuck out and the challenge. Save me two years of school.

Don't marry. There are plenty of people out there for you who are better suited. Don't date anyone from AIT. Seriously. Nobody.

Don't fight that girl and stop stealing shit from Wal Mart. You're gonna get caught.

Exercise more and don't overeat.

Don't waste time worrying about girls.

work out that tummy

1. Don't stress over getting perfect grades until you're in the last couple years of high school. Universities don't even look at your jr. high marks. Getting 100% on every spelling test in elementary school only makes everyone think you're a nerd/teacher's pet. You're not proving anything to anyone.
2. Everything you care about right now doesn't really matter, so just forget it, you'll be saving yourself a lot of tears and agony.
3. Don't make friends with "D", he'll only blackmail you, lie to you, break promises, and try to ruin your life later.
4. Take more risks and stop caring about what other people might think of you.
5. Ask the girl out. Rejection isn't the end of the world.
6. Just because you don't care about your clothes or your hair doesn't mean the world won't judge you for it. You'll have more opportunities if you care about your appearance a little more.
7. Write everything down, because you won't be able to remember it all later.
8. Go after your dreams before it's too late. Stop taking yourself so seriously. You're not special. Nobody owes you anything.
9. Spend more time with your grandmother, because she won't be around to see you all grown up. You'll come to regret not asking her and showing her a million different things.
10. Don't always take the easy way out.

don't do meth! don't drink and drive(yes, stupid decision, glad I was the only person in the wreck), stop drinking so much, don't have one night stands. be a better daughter...

A afterthought. Take care of your body. You never know it might last. I think it was Mark Twain that said
"If I knew I was going to live this long. I would have taken better care of myself when I was young" ?

Buy silver, gold, invest in microsoft, google. Don't get married until you are 30.

Do not smoke, love who you are, listen to and love your parents. You never know how long you have them.

you will learn to cook tasty food, start learning to cook sooner

All the stuff everyone said about the monster under ur bed is bullshit, it doesn't live under ur bed, in closet, or behind the door; It lives inside ur head.

Start swimming when u're 4 not 6.

Memorize the last advice.

U're most vulnerable when ur sleep, and even more vulnerable in the first five minutes of waking up.

Get away from poker. Plz.

Most important of all: Be cool, Don't buy Halo.

Make a move, she's not going to wait forever. Don't pay attention to what other people say or think.

Don't ever grow your hair out either.

*Later, and for a different person*

She's just using you. She's not interested and you'll never be more than friends.

Don't eat so much.