Addicted to misery. iin?

I fear I'm becoming a masochist. It's not even sexual. Experiencing a hell of a lot of aches, but when they finally healed, the first thing that came to mind was "how can I feel that way again?". I know it doesn't make much sense, but I feel so much better when in pain, so much more like myself. I've never sought it out; just...subconsciously enjoyed it. I recently found the clarity to realize that that's what this is, and it worries me. Is it normal to be this way?