Abusive mother, and brother

Hello
I'll start my story with my alcoholic father who my single mum hates, that kidnapped me from age two and been retuned safely at age five, ever since I only remember hatred and bad attitude towards me, my all colic brother and his friend sexually abused me that later developed a strong sense of denfece agains this yet I'm constantly being called whore, bitch, prostitute, and talking to boys in sexual manner by both my brother and mother for not memorizing well my lessons, for not hearing the bell ringing, for not cooking, or randomly when they aren't not in a good mood which is always, everyone dislikes them we live alone, I know no one to go to, I'm still a virgin, and I've never talked to a boy in love matter, I'm very strick with myself yet my dear mother doesn't see that I'm turning 26 this nov and I've been called bad names almost everyday by her, there's no chance I could go out and marry someone because they meet her and get scared, and I'm bounded to her because my studying, final year in my medical college other than proud mother she should be, she keeps telling me that she wants me to drop off my college and study home serve her.. I have no friends because she keeps picking up on them and try to call them and threatens me to do so, I have suscidal tendencies but no one knows... Finally I'm fed up with this, because its affecting me and changing my personality from shy, very polite and respectful girl into angry, explosive full of hatrd

I wish you could help me, I've lived this whole my live regardless of the physical abuse that sometimes I get from her

Sincerely yours

Sandy