(men) ugh, i'm so embarrassed - do you think he minds?
I'm so embarrassed!!!
Last night, my boyfriend and I had sex for the first time in a little while. Hadn't seen him because work, but it's alright because I had my period. I don't really like to leave my house for anything besides work when I have my period, or really see anyone just because the discomfort bothers me, and I get moody so I avoid being bitchy to others by just isolating myself socially. No biggie, just normal things for personal comfort.
Well, I wanted to get dicked down last night, yeah? My period had supposedly ended yesterday so I was like so happy. I've had a really, really, stressful and rough past few days, so a good fucking from the person I love was just what I needed.
Well, long story short, I guess I still had my period. Fast forwarding, nothing happened DURING sex, only after when I started to bleed again. Sometimes when I get my period I guess I get pretty gassy??? I think most women do, not sure. Normally it's only like the first day so I just gotta hold it in all day so, I'm used to that.
But, good lord, when we were laying in bed I could NOT stop air from leaving my vagina - thing is, it didn't smell, at all. I wasn't farting, it was just air leaving. Which, since it had no odor whatsoever, wouldn't be a probablem - EXCEPT IT WAS LOUD. AND SOUNDED LIEK FARTING. Lord in Heaven, I was so embarrassed.
Luckily, we're pretty much like. We typically just bring up embarrassing things? Like when his stomach makes a noise he'll go, "Shut up! You're embarrassing me!" as a joke and it's like, funny. He didn't say anything in regards to this though I think, because he didn't want to embarrass me.
It didn't happen once, but THREE goddamn times. I figured out that anytime I'd move, it'd happen so I was incredibly still until we fell asleep!
Eventually I had apologized, I explained the situation "WELP I guess I'm still bleeding, and uh, those noises are due to my period, I swear to god I'm not farting" but he didn't really drag the topic on further, I think to spare me embarrassment? He continued on as normal, we cuddled and he said the usual kind things to me ; he's a very sweet man,
but part of me is still paranoid/insecure! Do you think he finds me gross now? I mean, he hasn't given me any reason to feel that way...but now I feel embarrassed? I'm so mad at my dumb silly body,
Men, if ya girl did this would you think any less of her...sorry I'm kind of dumb, just so embarrassed...