"is it normal that i am falling in love with my best gay friend?"
I have been friends with this guy for a few years. I met him when he was with someone (a guy). Occasionally, we'd make out when drunk at clubs, but that was it. I took it for what it was.
Fast forward to the present. We're both now single. We've gotten way closer over the past year. He's over all the time, even has my keys. We even started referring to each other as husband and wife. Then, over the past several months, I found myself starting to fall in love with him.
He was recently away visiting his hometown for a while and came back and told me one evening, "I had a revelation about a lot of things. You're the one. I love you. I really believe in the kinsey scale. I don't even know who I am anymore." Then he proceeded to try and hookup with me. Not sex but pretty much everything but. I was taken back and a bit shocked, but it felt so good....like my dreams were coming true! I told him, "You're gay!" And he kept nodding no and told me to stop and be quiet, like he seriously was having an identity crisis. This was all under the influence of wine, but I've always been told a drunk man's words are a sober man's thoughts. He kept telling me he wanted to please me. I was shocked.
The next evening I asked him about his feelings while we were sober. He said he could see us having a life together, married and having children. His own mother tells him all the time how much she wants us to be married. He added that he needs to sort out his job situation and other things in his life first.
Since that evening, we have had a couple other occasions when we have made out, alone, behind closed doors, expressing our love and adoration towards each other. Before I went on a trip, he came by after a happy hour (after telling his friends he had to leave to go see me) and spent the night with me, drinking wine, kissing and cuddling in bed.
My feelings have gotten way more intense since the evening he professed that I was the "one". I know I need to talk to him again, but am I crazy for even thinking that this could become a reality? He was the one who laid out his feelings first. I feel like I'm dreaming and am afraid I may have to wake up one day and realize this is all too good to be true. Please help me before my heart really gets to the point of no return!