is it normal that i'm less nervous the more i like someone?

I've never met someone irresistable who really likes me (and they're not /that/ rare) so I've never had a girl. (First time: If they're resistable then why do it now?)

I don't know why anyone'd get more nervous the more they like a girl. If I like a girl 100% I'm not nervous. If she really likes me also that's so rare I'm just going to be glad we have a connection. I'm going to talk to her. (and it's getting close).

If a female likes me maybe she'll be worth a momentarily longer glance, or two, or three, up to flirting.

But they could be so damn ugly and out of my league they shouldn't be worth anything (romantically) and I'm nervous. They'd have to be like 80 for me to not get nervous. A young senior citizen, I don't want to look at her.

I once made a 45 year old m-i-l-not-f happy cause she though I liked her. I think she thought I was so overwhelmed by her special face I had to look away for a second lol, the next look was not me regaining my composure - I just wanted to see what this weird woman's face was doing :).

It's not horniness either, even being literally 100 times less horny doesn't really affect this. I just need love so badly.

My IQ is 140. Too much stuff going on in there.