"average" high school girl obsessed with gender-bending goths...
There's going to be a lot of labels in this post, but bear with me:
I am a senior in high school who dresses in very feminine and conventional clothes, mostly from Anthropologie, Urban Outfitters, etc, you know. I'm one of those girls that wears lots of colors, bright nail polish and jewelery, layers, sweaters, scarves and such. I guess "indie" or "hipster" would be what I look like. I'm a very outgoing person and have friends from all different social groups.
However, as far as dating goes I've only been romantically involved with people who are clean cut and dress in ways similar to myself (I'm bisexual FYI.) This hasn't really been an active decision, and I don't think that how someone looks or dresses should define why you date them, but I STILL can't help that...
I am absolutely obsessed with and extremely attracted to guys and girls who are goth, especially feminine looking boys. I'm not talking about the "emo" look, I mean kids who wear heavy makeup, black lipstick, trench coats, PVC, leather, chains, you name it. I love it all. Maybe it's because of my sexuality, but I'm also really into goth guys who cross dress and I find attractive men in women's clothing to be very arousing. I can't tell anyone about this because all of my friends will think I'm messed up.
So, I'm wondering if I'm normal, but what I want to know more is: am I crazy? Would a hardcore goth actually be interested in a five-foot-three blonde indie kid? What about a cross-dressing goth guy? I'm guessing no, but that's ok. I'll just keep on dating indie and preppy jock guys and girls that drink Starbuck's and wear skinny jeans. Nothing wrong with that either!