19 yo guy hot for 50ish women
I'm 19, male, and always thought of myself as pretty normal. I've dated, had girlfriends, sexual experiences, nothing weird or outrageous. And I figure that it's perfectly normal to be turned on by women older than me, say in their late 20s or even 30s, because at my age most of the attractive women out there will be older than me. But my hottest fantasies and strongest attractions are toward women who are pushing AARP age! To give you an idea, look at the woman in this commercial. I don't know if I can post a link here so in case the board won't let me, it's for "Zostavax" and shows an older woman in a green swimsuit in a pool:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HMLt7bSX3iE
I want to explain a couple of things. First, I get the full blown hormone jolt (short of breath, pants suddenly a little too tight, weak in the knees) when I see her body, her ass and thighs, like around 1:05 in the video. But supposing, ridiculously hypothetically, that I were to actually end up in bed with her; it's not a case where I'd have to dim the lights or something because of her face. They show her face in closeup in that commercial, and objectively she's pretty enough for an older person, and if a sixty year old guy were to think she was attractive I wouldn't think that was weird at all; but when I think about looking at her face while we orgasm together I get the same jolt I was talking about earlier. And she's at least twice, maybe even three times as old as me.
Second, this isn't a case of some guy getting a weird crush on one specific person in a TV ad. I mean, yeah, I'd love to slowly lick all that pool water off her body ... but it's not just her, there are quite a few other similar women of that age who make me feel the same way, the woman in that ad is just a convenient example to point to.
I understand that for many older women, sex is no longer something new, and they might see casual hookups as "been there and done that already." I also understand that some might want a serious relationship with someone who remembers the same events and gets the same jokes they do. And that's fine. I wouldn't want to (romantically) date someone three times my age. I wouldn't want to be in love with someone like that, and I wouldn't want her to be in love with me. But I also think there's nothing wrong with two people who just like each other making each other feel good, and I can't help but think that there are some women like this who wouldn't mind being in a friends-with-benefits situation with a friendly, nice, attractive guy who demands or asks nothing serious, even if that guy isn't legally old enough to buy his own beer.
What I'd really like is to develop a relationship like that with a woman of that age; or even just have a few one night stands along those lines. And I'm willing, but so far I haven't had much luck. Even finding a place where I can meet women like that, flirt, and see what happens, seems to be a problem; they don't seem to go to bars or other places I'm used to.
But that's what I want. Am I normal? And any suggestions?