19 years old, never been in a single relationship, iin?
It all starts with how i see things. I'm 19 years old and now a sophmore in college. When I was in elementary, I had lots of friends and was actually known by many, As i got to middle school, it seemed lots of people had changed..I had few of my same friends left, made a few new ones. I got to high school & something happened. Most of my friends were gone, changed into people I no longer recognized. They fell victim to whatever changes people @ that age. I'm now in college, and have not changed at all in my way of thinking. Sometimes I wish I had changed and gone along unawarely with the crowd so that I would at least enjoy what everyone else is. That was not the case though.. I saw everyone else change and I saw myself almost stuck in the fast paced system of change.
Because I am still myself, I do not wish to act like the rest to get something I want. That includes girls.
I see all the 'techniques' used by guys to get girls.. Ok here, I see girls, and sometimes i kinda get disappointed with them because they complain so much about guys and they have a point so i believe them.. but like hypocrites they go and become easy bait, & end up with those guys they talked about & i avoided being. I'm still not changing... but i still have no relationships with girls. I'm not really in a hurry, but sometimes I get overwhelmed and wish to feel the comfort of a girl by my side. It seems i dont have a girl because I'm not like the rest, I'll admit im not a very usual kind of guy; Im good looking, but my way of thinking (realism) seems to bury me. I want to find a relationship in which i don't have to give up that piece of mind.. I'd become like the rest of the zombies. Wanting that, Is that normal? Should I keep on waiting? because i mean..by waiting i'm risking not knowing what a relationship would be like @ this age; I already missed out on being in relationships during my early teens. Hell, is this way of thinking normal?
One final note: To me relationships of me and a gf, well i guess I've imagined them as LOVE, but sometimes I think thats why i've been alone all of this time. I think that in these days at this age its not about love, but rather superficial or temporary things like lust. Does that seem to be right?
Ok, so is it normal to be the way I am, or do i seriously need to change myself because no one wants this..analytical beast?
Do I sound like someone normal who would be capable of finding someone? I always thinks it depends on the other person..but damn, here where I live I begin to think she's never going to show.. only hope I begin to think will be by computer o.O I'm sure as hell I'm not the only one like this, but sometimes I sure feel it.