20 years old but jealous of my baby brother?
OK I'm 20 years old and I've got one 8 year old brother and one brand new one week old brother. I love them both sooo much I can't describe it. I mean I would literally go to the end of time and space for them know what I mean? I'll do anything for them and I'll always be there, they're both basically my life.
I play with the 8 year old (who's feeling a bit unsure himself) all the time...and hold the new born as often as I can and make sure to spend enough time with both every day.
I'm living at home right now because the college I attend is very close to my house and it's just easier, and I'm home to help my mom with the baby and to make sure that the older brother knows that he's still loved just the same.
So....why do I feel like I did when my first brother was born? I suddenly feel 12 years old again, in the way, and unwanted. I'm old enough to keep up my daily habits and smiles and keep tones in check when I'm feeling this way....but I can't stop feeling it.
I feel terrible, like I'm going to hell or something, for feeling whatever (I'm not sure jealous is the right word) about the new baby...because 1) he's a baby 2) He's my brother 3) I'm flipping 20 years old, where did this come from?!!!!??
Does that make me a bad person? Is this normal? (probably not ha.)