19 year old "hot" female virgin undateable?
Basically I grew up ugly (fat as f**k,ugly hair,ect.) and got bullied a lot as a child. As a result I became a loner in about 6th grade and have been one up to this point in my life at 19 (as a mechanism to protect myself.) I suffered from Eds and depression growing up and am just now becoming more "normal" to the outsider (guess I'm just good at acting "normal".) People tell me that I'm "hot" and "have a nice body" and how "they can't believe I've never had a bf", but they fail to realize that I didn't grow up like with friends,dating, and have yet to hit most "teenage milestone". I'm a huge loner and a sucker with no self esteem :)
Apart from that I like to think I'm a decent human being with brain cells and empathy for others. I also like good music and have been told I'm chill by guys.
I guess I appear normal on the outside but my loser/loner status makes me think I will never get a decent bf and that I will end up a 40 year old virgin because my loserness would turn off guys.
So am I f**ked dating wise and life wise?