18 year old, female virgin holds self back from sex

Alright, I can't believe I am going to ask fr you opinion of me, but I really feel I need someone's honest thoughs.

I am 18 years old and I have only gone as far as kissing. Theres nothing wrong with me, I am of the impression I am very attractive. I just won't allow myself to continue any further sexually with a guy or girl.

It ridiculous, I know im some sort of sexual freak. I get off at least 5 times a day, but when it comes to progressing sexually with a partner I won't let myself.

I am not afriad of sex.
I just feel that I am demented.
Like I am not capable of love.
And I don't like the image that comes with having casual sexual partners.
But I am like so horney and craving just to f**k.
I even offerd a couple boys to be "friends with benifits" but they won't accept it. Both got upset with me becuase I didn't want anything more.
I just don't get whats wrong with me??
I think I have some serious commitment issues.
Anything dealing with being close to someone I run from. Even past my sexaul frustration I won't even date.
Ugghhh. I feel like I wasn't meant for life.
Advice? help? am I at all normal?

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Based on 23 votes (15 yes)
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  • Alison89

    You don't like the image of having casual sex partners, but you offered some guys to be their casual sex partner?

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  • valasity

    I'm a guy and I get horny sometimes, and kinda know what your going through. Five times a day sounds like a lot and maybe only getting off three times a day might help with moving past kissing if you want to. I think your so comfortable with yourself and in control of yourself sexually you don't want to have sex with another person because you won't be in total control. It may also be hard since your the one chasing after sex. It might be easier if you weren't the one chasing sex, like a message and have a guy slowly touch you to get used to someone else touching and giving you sexual feelings beside yourself. Your probably used to kissing because it's something you can't do to yourself. This is normal so don't worry about it and hope your feelings start to go away about how you feel about sex and yourself.

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  • happilysingle

    There is nothing wrong with you. Each person has his/her level to which they feel comfortable getting close physically. Even though you want to have sex you can not get yourself get so close to another person. Don't rush. You are still very young. Do it when your mind feels comfortable. Otherwise you won't enjoy it and it will be painful.

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