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hello,
well...were shall i start. im a 22 year old male and for the past 10 months now, ive been having these weird thoughs and feelings. theres a couple of things that come to mind when i think think what has brought on these emotions, but...none of which i thought could make me truly hit rock bottom which is were im headed if it continues. firstly, ive never had a girlfriend(you think thats weird it gets worse)ive only ever kissed one girl and i only did it because i didnt wanna look bad infront of my friends....she was pretty ugly.
secondly...i hate my job. im a security guard...possibly the most boring job in the world....and not even close to what i wanted to do. i wanted to be an archeologist/historian.....for those of you who dont no what that is..... just think indiana jones minus the gun fights!
unfortunatly, i was so badly behaved in school that i just about finished with enough qualifications to work at mcdonalds.
thirdly, i find myself wondering....when out socializing with so-called friends....what am i doing with these people. i feel like an outcast, these people have nothing in common with me, and the only reason im here is because my xbox live gold membership ran out. now some of you maybe thinking, just find some new friends.....believe me when i tell you after 22 years experience.....all people ....non family, no matter how long you known them, will eventually let you down in someway, if its to their gain. people are selfish vile creatures who play to their own advantage.....the only people i bother with now are my parents....and brothers/sisters....i hate the rest of my family...they are failures.
to cut this essay short-(ER than it could be)
im starting to think that maybe i should just give up on life....take some pills....an die, because theres nothing left for me here.
if theres some sane intellectual people out there that can offer me advice, please do.

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  • rico30
    13 years ago

    Re-new the xbox membership. Go for a holiday to a tropical location far away like the South Pacific. Meet beautiful interesting women. And F##K them.

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  • ithinki'mnormal
    13 years ago

    i've went through some really shitty depression a while ago but recovered so man just don't give in to those thoughts, you can try going to church which what helped me, or just find so hubby, or set a goal in you life, you just gotta do something contructive

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  • MESOMIKE
    13 years ago

    First, stop the damned "intellectual" shit. I can be very intellectual. I can also be as miserable as you are if that is all that I value. A little philosophy for you: Descartes---I think, therefore, I am. That sounds like the root of your problem.

    A little advice from a great spiritualist: "The only thing lacking in any situation is what you are NOT giving." Think about that. Deny it. Laugh at it. Think about it some more. Look at your life and ask yourself, "what am I giving here?" I'm not trying to blow sunshine up your ass, but you need help that prozac alone can't solve.

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  • chichi
    13 years ago

    I tell my son all the time dint worry about things go out have fun travel see what's out there

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  • Proudfear
    14 years ago

    normale, and not all people are like how u described i know plenty of people who are like that and some that arent

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  • rockerxchick313
    14 years ago

    Im at the same spot. I dont know what to do anymore. And im taking the hanging approach.. Idk. You have alot ahead of you. I dont. Just keep trying.

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  • hotchickie81
    14 years ago

    Please don't give up! I know life seems awful now, but you're only 22. I'm sure things will get better. My life also sucked big time when I was 22, but now it's a lot beter. Try to keep yuor chin up! :)

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  • one_green
    14 years ago

    First of all, let me say YOU can change your life. You have MUCH going for you, not the least of which is, you KNOW what you want and what is wrong with your life. Many people don't even get that far!

    Secondly, you are intelligent. I know that by the perfect English you use and the way you are able to express yourself through words.

    Make a plan for yourself, starting with small steps. I suggest you go to your nearest community college and talk to a counselor. Many community colleges take students who didn't necessarily do well in high school. You might have to pass an entrance exam, but you can do that, easily. Some community colleges have study guides online. Ask about taking basic college courses that will transfer to a university after two years. That means you will be taking college English, Math and other basic courses. You can do it. You are not a stupid person. That's easy to tell.

    Don't give up!!!! We only have ONE chance at this life. You can make the most of yours. Just do it. I wish you good luck!

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