.... confused

Ok, this is hard for me to write, because it is difficult... I'll explain why. Almost every day since my seventh birthday, I hear these voices. They are telling me to do things, and for two years, I did try to follow their orders. It's really weird, but it feels almost immpossible to disobey; the voices will yell and scream untill I succumb. When I was 11, they wanted me to commit suicede. I spent three days in the hospital puking and in and out of unconsciencous.