Why don't i want to leave my abusive relationship?

I've been with my bf over 3 years and have become extremely comfortable with him to the point I can't see myself with anyone else and dont want to. I think the only thing I see in him is familiarity and comfort and i don't want to leave that and start all over with someone else because I've already invested so much into the relationship. Unless he's high on weed hes hell to be around and doesn't respect me or seem to care. The first time he beat me up he could of killed me and i called the cops and he did his time...but when he got out i took him right back and things were good for awhile until he beat me up again. Everytime he beat me up he would take a day to cool off and would apologize and i would take him back. I think each time i took him back i got more and more complacent with him hitting me. He used to hit me atleast once a month
But hasn't hit me in about 6 months. He beat me up for nothing again last night and i think it's due to him using hard drugs again. I scare myself because after he was done beating the shit out of me I didn't even want to leave, i wanted to stay there because it doesnt even phase me anymore I don't want to lose him even tho I know he's no good and i can't understand why i cant let him go even though he treats me like shit. Sorry for the rant. Your guys input would be greatly appreciated.

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  • Zorak

    I think I have seen this exact same post before. I don't believe a word of any of this because the situation sounds so retarded it has to be another troll post. If by the slim chance this is an honest post, (unlikely) then you should seek help.

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    • charli.m

      Clearly, you don't understand the psychology behind domestic abuse.

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    • EccentricWeird

      Fucking BASED!

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  • charli.m

    https://youtu.be/V1yW5IsnSjo

    You need to find help to get you out of this, be it famiky, friends, or professionals. I hope you are able to get out before it gets worse.

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  • dirtybirdy

    If this is a real cry for help, please find a way to leave him before he kills you.

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  • pu1se

    you're scared to leave. just do it there is someone better for you. you deserve to be respected

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  • MR.mr

    Write down everything you've put up with in detail. By the time you're halfway done, you'll be so pissed at yourself for putting up with so much it might be enough motivation to move on.

    Please I know we can can used to anything, it's how people are but you should never get used to abuse, you deserve better.

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  • Poisonous-Cupcakes

    Your a women...lot's of boys will be happy to date you ..maybe you don't believe it but you don't need him

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  • Steve2017

    You sound scared to be alone and you've gotten use to being with this guy. but nothing is going to change unless you decide to do something. Find a guy friend or your father and tell them whats going on. Tell them you want to break it off but you're afraid to get hurt/ be alone when you break up or that you may relapse into taking him back again. Meet the current boyfriend in a public place, don't tell him why just act like normal, but meet him there separetly with your father and or a guy friend who could take the boyfriend if need be (i mean that they could kick his ass) and break the relationship off. After that go stay with your father and or the friend so they can watch after you. While thats going off block his calls and delete him from all your social media. If you think this is good advice i hope you do it and i hope you let all of us know when you did. If you need anything else feel free to post on my comment and I'll get back to you asap

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    • McBean

      This is the mature quality advice I wish more people would give at IIN.

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  • TheKidd98

    Wow no man should hit a women ..unless its in self defense and your life is really in danger..but regardless ..leave him and find a guy that will treat you with love ..respect and care

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  • BlackCatsAreAwesome

    When they say women love bad boys...

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