Why don't i want to leave my abusive relationship?
I've been with my bf over 3 years and have become extremely comfortable with him to the point I can't see myself with anyone else and dont want to. I think the only thing I see in him is familiarity and comfort and i don't want to leave that and start all over with someone else because I've already invested so much into the relationship. Unless he's high on weed hes hell to be around and doesn't respect me or seem to care. The first time he beat me up he could of killed me and i called the cops and he did his time...but when he got out i took him right back and things were good for awhile until he beat me up again. Everytime he beat me up he would take a day to cool off and would apologize and i would take him back. I think each time i took him back i got more and more complacent with him hitting me. He used to hit me atleast once a month
But hasn't hit me in about 6 months. He beat me up for nothing again last night and i think it's due to him using hard drugs again. I scare myself because after he was done beating the shit out of me I didn't even want to leave, i wanted to stay there because it doesnt even phase me anymore I don't want to lose him even tho I know he's no good and i can't understand why i cant let him go even though he treats me like shit. Sorry for the rant. Your guys input would be greatly appreciated.