Why can't i think like a normal person
Hello my name is Chante, i'm currently 15, I've been noticing lately how...weird i am. I often think of things normal people don't. I believe in things a normal person wouldn't and i think somethings wrong with me. I hate all interactions with people and social media, i love dark isolated places, i often think about homicide and suicide, i honestly believe that i were to be shot in the head i'd survive. I wish often for mental illness and i want everyone to abandon and bully me, i want to be tortured, and i want scars all over my body. i hate anything not fun and rarely leave my room. i give up on everything really easily and have zero self confidence, i can't sleep at night and i often wish i could live on a planet where only i exist. I have no trust in anyone, and often believe that i'm not even alive and that other people are robots or illusions used for some giant game just to torture me, i get told i stare off into space to often but i never notice and i hate everything about myself and love everything at the same time.