Why are some dark skinned girls so mean to us mixed girls

my whole life ever since i was a child i have had problems with dark skinned girls. from elementary school, to middle school, to high school. dark skinned girls have always stared at me giving me the evil eye. growing up i did not know there was a problem within the black race with skin colors of "light skinned and dark skinned." i did not learn about all of this until a about two years ago. i know it sounds like i have been living in a box but when you're mixed growing up in a home where everyone else is mixed or "white passing" (white passing means you look so mixed that you can almost pass for looking white) no one really discusses colorism. that is what it is colorism. dark skinned girls would always bully me growing up. they saw me as a passive person. i noticed that dark skinned girls target light skinned and mixed women a lot. they think that we are all weak and will let them walk all over us. i hate that i have to act extra tough and mean to keep dark skinned girls away from me or trying to fight me. at the school i go to most of the dark skinned girls are really loud and frequently start altercations. dark skinned girls are very beautiful i will admit that. they have beautiful features and hair but their attitudes, self hate, and jealously makes them so ugly. it does not make since to be so beautiful but to direct your hatred for the white girl onto us mixed girls, and light skinned girls. we are not white. again i say those of us that are mixed with black and white are not white, even if we are pale, or have straight or super fine hair, or look white, we are not white we are mixed. i get so tired of dark skinned girls on youtube saying "mixed and light skinned girls will take the side of the white man and are bed wenches" i am not a bed wench. but the thing is dark skinned girls, some of us mixed girls do not experience all of the harsh racism and discrimination in the world back to back. and we cannot pretend like we understand what you are going through. i wish dark skinned girls would be nicer to me because i just do not like them anymore. they make me feel very uncomfortable now even though the dark skinned girls of today are not the ones that bullied me. i do not fear dark skinned girls i just really am at my breaking point with them giving me dirty looks and constantly trying to try me with aggressive behavior to see how i will react. it is interesting how on youtube a lot of dark skinned girls constantly complain about society is wanting to look like them without being black, or how black men now prefer to date white or mixed women, have you ever thought maybe it's the attitude? i will not lie TV does not help you dark skinned girls because the media makes you look like you are aggressive, have bad attitudes, and are loud all the time. the thing is most dark skinned girls at my school have these traits. dark skinned girls you are not ugly to the world because of your skin you are ugly because of your envy towards those who are not dark skinned. if i counted all of the stares i get from dark skinned girls and grown women a day i would lose track. what are you staring at? why are you frowning? are you shocked that there are interracial couples and the babies come out sometimes looking like me? are you offended by me because you know i am the result of a white man marrying a black woman, or a black man marrying a white woman? does this make you "feel some type of way" and another thing is to all the dark skinned women who can't stand me and frown but interracial date your baby will most likely look like me. you did not know that? it's like how can you hate or have such aggressive views towards the people your kids will most likely look like when you interracial date? i noticed a lot of dark skinned girls that pick with me put up pictures of babies that looked like me when i was a baby. pick a side dark skinned girls. you are either going to hate us mixed girls or love us. you can't love your mixed child then hate the mixed girl who is not related to you. this is all so silly to me. for me to constantly be mistreated my dark skinned women. i am called bedwench, coon, massa's daughter, it's really dumb to me. oh another example. yesterday my sister and i went to walmart. there was a dark skinned girl ringing us up. she kept tapping her foot and having an attitude while she rung up my sister's groceries. she would stare at us quickly looking from my sister to me looking angry. so i kind of frowned at her too giving her that "what is your problem look" to those saying "maybe she was tired of working that day." she had no customers in her line and she was not about to close. the look she gave my sister is the same look dark skinned girls give me. it was actually pretty funny to watch. my sister cannot help that she is mixed and beautiful with long hair. that's the way God made her. i'm to the point where i don't even feel bad for dark skinned girls anymore and how society treats them. i am tired of you girls mistreating light skinned and mixed women. when society shows you as being masculine and not feminine i no longer feel bad, because the way you have treated me growing up and still continue to treat me and my other family members sucks. maybe this is your karma i don't know. but good luck with your futuristic problems of colorisim, self hate, and dark skinned female masculinity. because i am done caring.