What should i do about my mental health?
I want validation that there is something in my brain making me this way but I'm scared to. I feel like I have at least some sort of depression and maybe anxiety. I just don't know what to do to prove to myself that I'm not just whining ya know. I could got to the councillor but she seems so fake and I don't think it'll help. Especially since there are things I can't tell her about anyways. I can't just float around this meaningless void feeling like I'm just a cry baby one minute and another feeling like I have a literal illness. I can't get anything done. Part of me thinks everyone feels this way so why bother, I'm just another stupid teenager influenced into thinking this way. But idk. I'm kinda at a loss. At a spinning door that's open on all ends but I'm too terrified to go anywhere but somewhere familiar. Leaving has failed before. Even just a foot out those doors has had me falling. Scared and feeling exposed.