What's your psychiatric diagnosis?

Trich= Trichotillomania= Compulsive hair pulling.

Derma= Dermatillomania= compulsive skin picking

Iep= Individualized Education Program= special class in school to help me with my organizational skills and thought processing skills.

Well I can handle being around people. I even like having people around me but only without the pressure to socialize. When I have to talk to people my mind just kind of goes blank and I cant find any words. Like a really intense stress reaction. And in some periods I feel really anxious even just being surronded by people, it depends on my overall stress meter at the moment.
I also struggle with leaving the house. It makes me very anxious when I have to be out for too long and travelling has always been a huge problem even though i've practiced it as an adult by travelling quite far by myself a few times so it's a bit easier now.
I also avoid groups of people like the plaque. I have friends here and there, I have never tried to get into a group of friends. It helps to sit and talk to just one person, especially if it's someone who's better at talking than me because I feel less pressure having to come up with topics which is hard when I get so stressed out I cant think of anything. But once i'm pretty comfortable with someone it's easier.

I can sign up under this, screenings and surveys are piece of cake for anyone smart enough. If I could pass through them to be appointed in public administration, they are definitely broken

Killing time... iin is more interesting than social media, where everyone pretends they have a perfect life.

It is a disorder. It's an addition to a learning disability. My brain has a harder time translating thoughts to oral movements in time. My fingers have no such issue.

Mainly cant shut my brain off. I take prozac plus clonazepam.

Mainly racing thoughts and sometimes excessive hand washing.

Why not? I've worked for almost 2 decades in the Nuclear Industry - and I assure you that I have most likely been more thoroughly analyzed psychologically (multiple times) that likely anyone else on this forum.

I think the current cost of an initial security and psychological screenings is about $8,000 per person; with 5 year re-qualifications at about $2,000 per person.

They don't play games with this.

Like seeing something unfold and accepting one of the first few rationalizations you can make

A shallow example would be a car speeding along the highway, almost always it evokes a strong negative reaction, like "you're not gonna cut me off" or "that's a nice expensive toy you bought to race to each red light with" but if it's like an older or worn down looking car or a minivan or something like that, I can tell myself it very well could be a woman about to give birth being rushed to the hospital, which immediately replaces my feelings with mindful indifference

Deeper examples, I can use this person at work

For a few weeks now he's been working at my pizza shop, and he doesn't really ever show that much improvement/initiative, seems to play dumb, and has seemed to be passive aggressive

I know people who would look at that and say then and there that he's not a good employee, and I recognized that in myself, but I kept at it with training and corrective action and gave him the BOTD

Currently he's leaving piss in the toilet, pretending to be even less intelligent, and doing things I can prove psychologically wrong on purpose just to be annoying

I waited because I know he's adopted and has family issues, I grew up with that too and can understand the strain, and I was hoping the right nudges from me would help

But now he's showing me this is just what I'm gonna get with him. I've explained things to my boss (there's also 60 dollars that went missing over the few times I've had him work a till, which he says he does at another job) and he's primarily going to be cleaning the bathroom and other things and doing busy work like folding boxes etc until he's had enough and quits or we can let him go, whichever comes first

So in this case my earlier assessments were right (they're usually pretty close to accurate) but I didn't act on them until I was convinced beyond reasonable doubt (I've seen people get fired for much, much less)

Bones just explained something like this in an episode I watched, it's about maintaining objectivity and not falling for logical fallacies or something like that (a scientist friend of hers helped a cannibal and he rationalized giving the man human canines to make dentures, as well capturing a person to eat, and rationalized it in a very scientific way that Bones was able to refute in like 3 simple questions)

Now you sound like me, those negative feedback loops keep me from talking to a lot of people

It's hard for me too, but I rationalize it like, yes I want to be friends with them (which is why I still occasionally get inspiration to talk to them), but it ended and it was awkward at best when we tried, and one of my mantras is "the best way to win is to not play"

I kinda accept that it's over, and use those deep seeded attachments as a reminder not to be whatever I feel like caused the rift

And hey, I doubt she's fully forgotten you, even if she's acting like it

Why don't you two here try become friends? It could work out id you put your hearts into it..

I'm sorry, I'm not quite sure what you're asking. What do you mean?

Employer. But in my country the employer isn't allowed to see the reason you're sick. It's not on their copy of the sick note. You do have to see an independent 'work doctor' at the start of your contract and at some other points though, who will deem you fit or unfit to work. Whether you're fit or unfit to work is all the employer is entitled to know - in theory. In reality people get curious and want to know why they're having to cover your work, and 'work doctors' just blithely sign the 'fit to work' coupon the moment you walk through the door, without asking any questions.

For me I go through intense periods of restricting food (fasting/starving) to bingeing on food. Currently I'm in my bingeing stage but it'll probably switch to fasting again soon. My weight literally can change 20-50 pounds within months. It's not good.

Do you have EDNOS?

Well, I'm glad you asked. I think my interest is somewhat related to the motivation causing clinical people to work with crazies, weirdos, and psychotically confused peeps. Irrational beliefs are fun to spot, because they often warp people's emotional consciousness into twilight territory. Usually, religions cause minimal albeit constructive warping. But Christian fundamentalists and Islamic extremists both go berserk and cause violent entertainment for us all.

I have taken online courses in Cognitive Behavior Therapy and find models like CBT to be a fascinating explanation of the unadaptive plasticity of the human mind. I also think that occasionally, demented creepy geniuses with high creative ability produce ideas, one in a thousand of which become tamed into discoveries that raise the level of human enlightenment for us all.

Hey man, the human zoo. Collectively, we are animals filling our Planet Earth cage with CO2 shit as if we think we will be able to eat it someday. Hahaha, 7.5 billion morons. Ya gotta love it. 😜