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I feel like over the days and weeks that masturbation doesn't feel pleasurable in anyway and dating can be quite of a real challenge for me due to Aspergers Syndrome, and low tolerance to frustration of rejection, and I thought to myself if it's safer to just try MDMA (molly) and see how it feels, maybe i'll get over the feeling of existential crisis, and meaninglessness, and overall boredom of not having senses stimulated enough to feel content, and serene.
as someone who takes drugs i'd have to say no purely because of the reason you're taking them. you'll take the molly, you'll feel fucking amazing for a while, then you'll come down and the first thought you have will be 'i wanna get high again'. you'll be less motivated to improve your current situation (especially the social life stuff) because if you want to have fun you'll just pop a molly. drugs are something to take when you're already feeling content in life, if you take them when you're feeling bad then you're on the fast track to dependence.
also molly is more of a social, party drug. i'd take something else if you're gonna be solo. but if you're gonna ignore all of this and do it anyway for the love of god buy a test kit and don't take more than 100mg for your first dose (unless you're pretty heavy, then go to 150mg)
The gods don’t want us to drown our sorrows in drugs, not to mention the usual risks of self-medicating without appropriate research. If you aren’t data-literate enough to do your own research then you should talk to a doctor before self-medicating and obviously most doctors won’t encourage illegal drug use.
Sounds more like you need more “extroverted” or physically active activities that stimulate senses, like meeting opposite sex, working out, sports, or just generally going out places. I understand you have Aspergers “Syndrome” (ie. you’re superior to other people) but you just need to adapt your hobbies to your unique personality. Anecdotally I’ve noticed a lot of spergs like collecting things. Personally I have a personality type that makes me hate people so some of the things I do for stimulation are going to the beach, nature walks, antique malls, lifting weights, hard manual labor.
Try MDMA with good friends you trust.
MDMA will bring you feelings of warmth and empathy. It stimulates your senses. The sky will look beautiful and bigger and the world will feel like a friend. I can't stress enough to you though, only friends you trust. I'd recommend it to anyone but don't use it often. It's a life changing experience.