My whole family hates me
For my whole life my family has been through alot but it seems that iv always been the one thats gotten hurt the mostt, my dad threw me out at the age of 13 because i wasnt a boy and he couldnt cope with my teen years ....... so i had no other choice but to live with my mother , but shes never understood me she knows nothing about me , she never takes the time out just to ask me how my day was or any of the normal things a mother is supoost to do , i have 2 younger brothers and an older sister , my sister is on the drugs really bad and is a alchoholic not to mention shes pregnant but shes never really been around, my oldest brother is 11 and has alot of mental issues includeing add wich is really hard on me , he treats me like im nothing , hes so disrespectful , and it really hurts he dsnt actually understand how it effects me , his actions keep on getting worse and worse and all i seem to do now is sit in the corner of my room and cry until i get headaches and fall to sleep , i dont eat much, and when i do come out of my room all i do is fight with my mother and then i get really angry and cant seem to control miself .... i punch ...kick scream i get so angry i dont know what to do , i cant sleep at night bcus all i can think about is all the bad things that have happened to me in my life ................ im a nice loveing supporting person i care about everyone and i always seem to help them with there problems really well ...... im a good friend and a good person i just dont get why so many bad things have happened to me in my life or what i have done wrong to deserve all of this , i try and talk to my mother about the feelings i have but she dsnt listen to me she just walks away or yells at me ): i have no one else to talk to and this is the only website that i could find that i could talk about my problems, i dont want to be taken away from my family bcus i am currently seeing a really nice guy that cares about me alot and im afraid if i get taken away i wont be able to see him anymore , i love my friends and where i go to tafe i dont want any of that to change i just want to know if im a bad child ? or if i have done anything wrong , i dont get any of this im really confused ? my family hates me ..... why ?