My life is a damn failure!!!

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Alright, to make a long story short, I am turning 30 in about 8 months, and I just feel like my entire life was an absolute failure up until now. There's a couple things I'm very extremely upset about, and have had bad flash backs on and off. I was home schooled until the age of 18, and barely had any human interaction which caused me to have a personality disorder. I had no friends, no women, absolutely nothing. It took me about 2 years to adjust to the environment to make friends, but that only lasted for about 6 months before I left the state I was in (AZ).

All these men lost their virginity at like 14-18 years old, and I didn't end up losing mine until I was about 25. The woman I lost my virginity to is currently married to me, and she had very little sexual experience when we first did it. I'm upset that I was scammed by religion into this awful life setting without trying out multiple women, and I thank my parents for this bullshit mess. Now because she's the only one I've ever had, its making me look at other women, and I've came very close to cheating several times.

Now that I've had someone, my life has gone through a flip flop. Instead of having friends and no woman, I now have a woman and no friends. This has been going on since we met when I was 24, and we're both very depressed. I really just don't understand why things in my life turned out this messed up. My sex life got fucked up, my friend life got fucked up, and my educational life got fucked up. I'm getting ready to transfer to a university, but again, I'm nearly 30.

You know what? I am going to admit it.

MY LIFE IS A GODDAMN FAILURE!!!!! I DON'T CARE IF I DIE TOMORROW!!!

No, really. I was CURSED the day I was born, and my parents should of aborted me. Hell, I'll probably just blow my brains out the day of my 30th birthday. I really just don't want to live anymore, and its too late for me to turn back the clocks to fix everything. I'd rather just die in the ground, and get it over with. I want to fade from this world. I am a loser, and I admit it.

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  • reminiscent
    9 years ago | pl

    Well... your first problem is blaming your patents for your decisions in life...
    your basing life success on the fact u didnt get to have sex at a younger age?... im sorry but boo hoo. When u lost it doesnt matter if u lost it at 16...20...or even 30. People who have lost it younger dont just have successful lives.

    Im happy for you that you were able to eventually make friends...thats good. You can make friends again...find people who have dome of the same hobbies as you....join a club.

    You didnt have to marry that woman...but u did that was your choice...if u feel its not working out divorce her...dont cheer...no one deserves that kind of betrayal.

    Your 30 still young and there us a lot of life left ...if you feel you are not satisfied with you life now you can change it and do something different or set new goals.

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  • green_boogers
    9 years ago

    I have no woman and no friends. I also don't give a damn. I enjoy the patheticness of human nature, read research journals, news magazines, and try to feel solitude and contentment with my isolation.

    Guess I'm saying stop expecting to have it all. You have a woman to work with, live with, and have sex with. Compared to me, your situation is enviable.

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  • thr
    9 years ago

    I just turned 29, and I my age and my life isn't making me hopeful either. Youth and time are fading. A thought I had today that might apply here, is that, with time, opportunity is exchanged for "so that's what I (unimpressively) spent the time on".

    I'm pretty sure you'll agree that there people who are worse off. You have a woman, and it sounds like it's possible for you to take an education.

    If you're unhappy with your life or relationship, wouldn't it help to talk to your wife about it?

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  • deepthought33
    9 years ago

    It sounds like both you and your wive are depressed and need some changes made. Don't leave her out of what could be a series of fun new adventures unless you truely don't see that relationship going anywhere.

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  • [Old Memory]
    9 years ago

    Do you have a good relationship with your wife? If so I would recommend not ruining it just to have sex with other girls. You will probablly find disappointment and regret. If your relationship is not good, then leave, but never ruin a good thing.
    You also sound clinically depressed.

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  • pallium
    9 years ago

    I am sorry but you don't need sex at age 14-18, really because all of those guys leave there ladies and ignore the children "they" have together

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  • pusssyeater
    9 years ago

    OK... Am I the only one who sees the utter BS in this?

    You're nearly 30, so you've been a legal adult for at least 8 years. During which you've had the right to work, rent, take mortgages,

    But you choose to continue depending on mommy and daddy's handouts, instead of making something for yourself like other grown men of your age do.

    Now, instead of treating the Problem (which is you not having any backbone), you come on here bawling:

    "Pity me! Pity me! Life won't hand me women to use for free sex!"

    Ugh. Grow up.

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  • thegypsysailor
    9 years ago

    I'm 68 and life is a blast! Stop moping around and change yours. You've got something like 40 years ahead of you to have some fun in and get it right.
    Why give up? Don't you have your health? Are you mentally handicapped? If not then either with your wife in hand, or not, walk out the front door, catch a bus or train (you could drive, too) and keep moving until you find some place you would like to stay in for a while. Many like you go to Alaska. Plenty of work, if you are willing to work hard, and pretty damn good money.
    Anything is better than dead. Anything.

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  • TimmyTheTurtle
    9 years ago

    "MY LIFE IS A GODDAMN FAILURE!!!!! I DON'T CARE IF I DIE TOMORROW!!!" im gunna call your bluff on this one... prove it. run across a freeway blindfolded 3 times.

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    • Ellenna
      9 years ago

      Oh yeah, encouraging suicide now, that's really nice

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  • Darkoil
    9 years ago

    Stop being such a pathetic piece of shit. You can change any aspect of your life, it's not too late.

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    • pusssyeater
      9 years ago

      He really needs to hear this, yeah.

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