Me and my best friend of 15 years hooked up
My best friend and I have been friends for about 15 years. Growing up through middle school and high school we did everything together we basically lived at each others houses. Over the years we have grown apart we still talk every day but we both work now and have boyfriends. She broke up with her boyfriend about a week ago and has been asking me to sleep over I pushed it off up until the other night I knew i couldnt leave her alone she’s been so upset over it we all thought he was the one.
Her and I have never made out or hooked up in the past but we’ve been best friends most of our lives so we would sleep in the same bed both in our underwear cuddle and watch movies. When I got there the other night we wanted it to feel like old times (big tshirt underwear ice cream snacks sappy movies etc) before bed we layed up talking about her now ex bf and I wanting to be a good friend told her we need to hang out more do this more often and that I would make the time for her her whole mood changed she seemed ready to move on.
So I rolled over curled up and wanted to text my boyfriend before going to bed shortly after my friend rolled over and cuddled up behind me which was normal what wasn’t normal was I could feel the top of her hand pushing into my butt slightly moving up and down as I layed there wide eyed thinking maybe she was sleeping? I decided to roll around and yes she was wide awake before I could say anything she started kissing me without thinking I kissed her back she stuck her hand down the front of my underwear it felt amazing I lightly rubbed hers on the outside of her underwear until we both came.
The next morning we hooked up again this time it felt natural she ended up going down on me like no one has before it was amazing I loved it but can’t help now but think about my boyfriend as I lay here next to him sleeping. If I hide it from my boyfriend and he finds out he will be so mad if I tell him I’m not sure how he would feel he has always joked and asked for three somes but idk how he’d feel knowing I did without him especially my best friend. Please help I know I screwed up and I’m not sure what to do now :( ... has anyone had a friend join you and your partner? I have thought about maybe letting my friend join me and my boyfriend but Idk how I would feel about him touching her maybe if she could just touch me?