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Is it normal to feel down almost all the time.I ho out with friends but when I get back home I feel empty and almost lonely. Iv tried picking up a hobby but that doesn't help in the long run and I find it so hard to talk to anyone about how I feel so iv bottled it all up. Am I depressed or something because everyday no matter how good it was ends up being a bad day
I know this may not be the place to say this but I couldn't help thinking it when I came across your story. I'm a Christian and I believe that God made everyone of us with a desire to be with him in our hearts. I also believe that when we feel empty, that this is him prompting us to look for him. Often we try and fill that emptiness with other people, movies, food, tv, books, alcohol, drugs, anything but I believe that the only way to feel whole is to start to get to know him through his word and his son Jesus. I've often felt how you have, especially after my father passed away, and I've found that just picking up a bible and reading some of the New Testement really helps me to feel whole again. It's your choice ultimately, but I think it would really help you.
So good news it is normal, It is not desirable I know but there is hope. Bad news there is no quick fix. I have dealt with depression all my adult life starting in high school and I know the exact feeling your having. Let me say that I wish I could hug who ever you are right now because the pain your in is unbearable. You will need professional help, you might need medical help. Start by seeing a licensed professional counselor. If you have insurance you probably get 5 free visits a year and then its 20-30 after that. If you don't have insurance, like me, ask upfront what you would have to pay. I called around and found an place that had a grad student who would see me for $30. Not any old counselor will do, don't feel obligated to make a 2nd appointment after the first try out a few if you don't like the first. Keep an open mind about your own mind. You might just need some help growing personally but you might also have a chemical imbalance that will need to be treated with medication. Seems like a lot of people on IIN are against medication and pharmaceuticals but how many of them have PhD's and understand the finner points of brain chemistry. You will eventually get past this it will take work but the moment you start working on it you will already feel better. Ask yourself this are you a normal person having a hard time with a difficult situation. Or are you an atypical person having a hard time with a normal situation. Those are both fixable situations, now get out there and fix them my friend.
Maybe you should join a charity so you can see how others suffer. It may put your sadness into perspective and at the same time make you feel good inside.
While you are doing that, try writing in a journal. But write only the good things about your day. Reflect on them and how they made you feel.
I think your problem now is you can't shake how those one or two etc bad things felt and they block out the good. I disagree with RedSheep18 in that happiness is something you can't read in a book..you have to find it in yourself.