Life is becoming rough
Is it normal i have to be constantly the rock or cornerstone, the stable person that gives strength to my family and friends? My brother is a perma drug addict and my mother is probably an alcoholic and are emotional wrecks.
I have to support them and be strong constantly and tell them how it's okay and they're going to be fine.
Most of my friends are emotionally fragile and need constant reassurance of their self worth. Both friends and family continually make poor decisions and have negative consequences in life.
I am financially successful and (i suppose emotionally as well) and continue to support everyone in both regards. Sometimes i get emotional but then i realize i can't allow myself to feel that way because so many people depend on me to be there for them.
I realize that happiness is a decision and i am self aware enough not to allow myself to ever get depressed. I do find myself drinking alot and listening to music alone to get away from it all more and more often though.
I have a girlfriend and the sex is great for her but at the end of the day i think something is missing. I think i should care more about myself but that would require selfishness and the hurting of so many people.
I guess my question is, "should I?" Or, "is it normal or okay" to potentially neglect so many people to focus on myself? Or am I just being a bitch and need to man up and quit crying?