Is there a name for my belief?
I am 20 years old, female. My dad is a Pentecostal preacher's kid, my mom claims that she is only "spiritual" but she goes through kicks where she is religious. My half brother was raised Mormon. My boyfriend generalizes his beliefs as Agnostic. I have friends ranging from Catholic to Atheist...but I don't know what I am.
I've tried going to church, praying, reading the Bible, and so on, but Christianity really doesn't jive with me. I hate a lot of its history and I can't get behind a lot of the things which preachers preach, probably because I've seen many preachers live a lie and so I don't trust religious leaders.
I am extremely tolerant of other religions and beliefs, though, I just wish for them not to be forced on me. I don't know that I believe in a God, or any sort of deity, though I do find the thought fascinating, and I love reading the stories about Greek and Egyptian gods and goddesses. I feel like karma is definitely a thing, though, and that the universe itself is alive in its own way.
I believe in the supernatural, but I don't believe in Heaven or Hell. My hope for when I die is that I just cease to exist entirely. I have held a curiosity, though, about whether or not an individual's belief dictates what happens to their soul when they die. As in, if someone believes they will be reincarnated, then they are. If someone believes that they're going to Heaven or to Hell, then that is what happens.
I have nothing against the LGBTQ+ community, I myself identify as heteroflexible. And I'm not ashamed of it. I also don't believe in the practice of saving oneself for marriage, because I sure didn't, but I am extremely confident that my relationship with the man I gave my virginity to will last a very long time. With that said, I'm not a huge fan of watching people be overly promiscuous, but it's their choice so I try not to judge.
I also try not to judge people who use drugs, drink alcohol, etc. I only avoid associating myself with people who I wouldn't want to be around, given their lifestyle choices. For example, I don't mind if my friends smoke weed every now and then, or if someone needs it for medical purposes. I'll sit right there with them but I won't smoke it myself. However, I don't want to be around someone who abuses pain medicine or other drugs like cocaine or heroine, simply because I don't like watching people do things which are detrimental to their health and well-being.
I don't feel like I have to dedicate my talents to something for worship. I am a highly creative person who hates being told what to do, and I love to exercise my gifts as I feel inspired to do so. In general, I have a distaste for authority.
I feel like violence is largely overused in this world, but I also feel like the ability to physically fight is a gift, which should be nurtured and channeled in a healthy manner, rather than just being thrown into wars.
So, any idea of what the heck my beliefs might be called? I have been to a Unitarian church once, and so far, that's the closest I've come to feeling connected with a religion.