Is normal to not want to miss any details in any and everything?
First off, let me say that this is not the traditional "FOMO" that you're familiar with, it's more like the fear of not being aware of or understanding every tiny bit of information I encounter. Weird right? I have a peculiar addiction or condition of being immeasurably curious. All I care for is discovering and learning, more specifically I covet sedulously evaluating every piece of information there is on this earth.
Some examples:
I find myself opening three or more Wikipedia article from just one. It happens every time I go on there, and it continues until I either reach the end of the subject, or I force myself to finally stop after investing at minimum an hour and a half on there.
As of typing this I have, 1,270 (mainly educational) videos in my watch later playlist on YouTube. These videos are spread across many topics, ranging anywhere from art to zoology. It should be noted that approximately ~300-500 of these videos are dedicated to music alone. Various genres of course. Let's not forget that I want to read at least 20 comments and the replies on each video.
I look up every word I hear or read that I don't 100% understand, words that I may or may not have known since I was a child but wasn't fully sure what they meant (even though I could've guessed) or forgot. I cannot watch a movie, a TV show, or consume any form of media without pausing or stopping at least 10 times to define words that I may or not've known.
And with all this going on I've been learning Celtic and Germanic languages, and I'm thinking of getting into learning a Slavic language.
I wish I could manipulate or live outside of time so that I had the necessary "extra-demensional time"to do everything conceivable. I would use this "Extrademtime" (lol) to go back in time for instance, to witness the very first sea creature leave the ocean and permanently settle on land and observe how it will eventually evolve into many species and much later humans. I'd watch the neanderthals live and discover how and why they died. I would use "Extrademtime" to live amongst our ancestors, to understand things the way they did, to understand the truth and fathom the logic behind every segment of mythology and theology. To read through every book that was ever written, to listen to every song ever made. I would very slowly close the gap between unknown history and known history. In short, I want to learn of every single thing that has occurred on this planet, even the smallest, most infinitesimal things that I haven't typed. Though, I am aware my brain has limits and this would be impossible to fully record without some form of technology, I just wanted to alliterate my voraciousness for knowledge and enlightenment.
I can't remember when I became this inquisitive, but the Worst part is that I fear I have slight amnesia. For example after a long day of reading, watch, listing, and trying to understand various things I'll sleep heavy (like I do every day) and by the next day when I'll wake up I can't remember a vast amount of what I researched, maybe ~40% of what I consumed I cannot remember. I can only remember certain things. I keep depositing hours of time into researching, but I can't retain it. Sometimes, I even find myself redefining words I previously have only a few days later. This is about the absolute worst thing that can happen to someone like me. Who knows, maybe I'm feeding my brain too much in to little time.
I wish there were a way to control or limit my curiosity. It's starting to get redundant and useless since my memory is getting poorer too. I don't know how to quit, and everyday it gets worse, but concurrently I'm in pure anguish every time I think about and acknowledge the fact that I will die knowing there is more to be explored and understood.
I need this to stop. I don't even know why I care for the many things I'm curious about. I wish there were something like an AA-like meeting for this, so I could discuss this strange ailment.
TL;DR: I'm inexhaustibly curious about everything, I've a fear of missing out on the tiniest of details no matter what they are. I spend all of my time researching things that I shouldn't even care about. I don't have enough time for life. I consider my extreme curiosity an addiction or condition that needs attention, and I have memory issues that are probably a side effect of my research sessions.
So after all that and even though I probably know the answer to this question, I'm going to ask it anyway. Is it normal?