Is it wrong to have a type?
I know a few people who have judged me strongly for having this type preference before. I don't really have a gender/sex preference. Generally If I like the personality I won't notice if they are male or female. A lot of this I think is based on my childhood. I was very smart as a kid but very neglected. My parents had apperent mental disorders and as the eldest child was given role as caretaker and theripist. At 18 my existance was not to get a job and be an adult but to appease them. My household always had a lot of fighting and problems and screaming. As a kid I was obsessed with serial killers. They made no sense to me becuase I was told crime is wrong so in my mind there no logical reason to commit crime. I ended up understanding at a young age monsters are often products we create. I thought I could save the world so that we would have less monsters if we fixed the schools, the economy, how we raise kids. However this mindset set off a number of raders. The thought if you associated with trouble you are trouble. I would gravitate towards the troubled, mentally ill children in my HS in my Middle school and tried to save them. I developed people pleasing behavior while inside I was deeply disgusted with most of society but proper and perfect as ever. Fast foward I was disowned by both parents. I have a job and I excell at work and do a lot of extra duties just to keep busy. I am a workohilic, a perfectionist, people pleasing and have a lot of homosexual tendencys. I can still only become attracted to people with some sort of issue but some people say that makes me sick. I clearly have a strong preference. I tried dating the average normal type. I am immediately turned off by them. Is it really so wrong to only be attracted to these type of people?