Is it normal to want sex with my dad
i am 19 years old and in a loving and stable relationship. i have been for the last 6 years.
but there is a part of me that pines for my father. my father is 48 and very athletic and in my eyes very handsome. but a few years ago my oldest sister came out and said that my father had sexually abused her, and only last year my 16 year old sister said the same that my father had abused her, although this is hard to believe, because my father always seemed like a normal and loving father, i can not help wishing it were true, and that it was me he abused, i live on my own and at night id lay awake wishing my father would be there with me.
sometimes i would masturbate and imagine it was my father touching me and abusing me. sometimes i would take it to another level and flirt with my father only to be knocked back. i do not believe my father abused my two sisters, because if this were true he would want a sexual relationship with me to.
i am so confused about this because i want to have sex with my father but i also know that it is wrong. i am a very good looking girl and i have been with my boyfriend for the last 6 years and we have a very healthy sex life although my partner has never been able to stimulate me sexually the only way i seem to be able to orgasm is to be "raped" by my boyfriend when we role play and he pretends to be my father raping me or the other way i manage to orgasm is but masturbating and imagining its my father on top of me raping me or abusing me.
is it normal for me to want to have sex/be raped by my father i think i need help because it sounds wrong but it doesnt feel wrong to me help me please.......