Is it normal to mistrust those closest to me?
I have random bursts of mistrust while being around people I love the most and it's getting worse and worse and harder to talk myself out of it.
I feel like my closest friends don't like me as much as I think and that they lie about my company just so I don't feel bad. I feel like my boyfriend doesn't really have feelings for me and that he sticks around just cuz he currently can't find anyone else and and only pretends he loves me or that my parents only pretend to be proud of me or are happy to see me when I come home for college every now and then. Everything they do shows how much they care and they all treat me so well, it almost feels like they pity me so much that it makes them act excessively.