Is it normal to make up your own immoralism?
After years of developing a moral code I found out morality always points out that I've done something wrong, but do you know what really doesn't work? Being smart, people think I've done the wrong thing, they don't care that I'm smart, which can be equated to doing non-psychopathic sane things. For example I'm not a psychopath but only one thing has been a misfortune all my life: people hate me for my brain, it was never the morals, or the immorals, just the fact that I'm smart, I can't prove it but my lack of morals works: just get me a bottle of wine, pour me a glass and I'll show you I'm having a good life, it turns sour without my aesthetic pleasures which are a luxury reserved for Saturday tomorrow when I'm having the time of my life. All I want is to create reality, which for the first time in 35 years I have actually created a tiny shred of my own reality, in fact being told what to do all the time I'm the king and therefore you have no right to tell me what to do. People don't want to hear it but their morals are getting in the way of my breathing, my natural freedom, I say no thank you, I don't obey controlling powers from human beings, I only obey religion, I gave up Buddhism not long ago. My immoralism even consists of sensualism, and I feel I get in trouble if I don't precisely with ever so much care in accuracy follow my lack of morals. It's all made better with a glass of wine or a can of beer, is that normal?