Is it normal to have a love/hate relatonship with your mom?

these past couple of years i've been having more and more trouble with my mom and her "religious fanatic" personality. when i was younger, i always went along with what she said. i prayed with her without complaints, i went to church with her, i didnt question restrictions she had.. etc. but i soon realized it wasn't normal. everything she does, she does in the name of god. she still tells me to pray with her and go to church, but now im awfully irritated anytime we do. once i told her a few years back that i didnt want to pray anymore, and she started yelling at me, so that obviously didnt work. she doesnt let me watch horror movies or see anything scary because she claims that it invites demons into your soul. she's a major conspiracy theorist, huge trump supporter, homophobic (and im a lesbian), you name it. im so tired of having to be under so much restriction. she even has a "ask to buy" on my iphone so i wont download any "inappropriate" apps when all i want to do is get some games. she has an attitude and gets mad at me for no reason, which causes me to get an attitude, and when she tries to apologize im already so mad that i cause another argument. ive always had problems with anxiety and other overwhelming emotions, but anytime i try to talk to her about it, she says to just pray. i want a therapist, but shes against it. when i get my period, (i have awful period cramps, i throw up for the whole day) im not allowed to take tylenol or advil because she doesnt believe in medications. she just tells me to pray the pain away. i love her, shes my mom, but at the same time i hate her. she makes me so angry. i cant do anything against god without getting in serious trouble. i have my own double life on my phone, with online friends, secret accounts etc. if she were to find out im not the perfect little angel she thought i was id probably get disowned. theres so much more to add but shes sitting right next to me as i type, so i have to make it short. i cant wait to move out of this hell hole