Is it normal to go from starving myself to binge eating

I want to be healthy and live a healthy life, but no matter how hard I try, I can't stop myself from gorging and then starving myself. When I was 13 I nearly developed anorexia because I thought I was fat and started starving myself, and then I became depressed and starting comfort eating in really unhealthy amounts. I would stuff chocolate and biscuits down my face without considering the health impacts. I put on loads of weight.
Then when I was 17, I decided that I hated myself for it and refused to eat or drink (except water) for 6 days until I was sectioned under the mental health act and restrained to be tube fed and force fed glucose solution. When I got out of hospital after a long stay for depression, I returned to my unhealthy eating habits and put on over 2 stone in a few months. I am currently in the 'gorging phase' and I can't keep away from chocolate, sweets, cereal bars, doritos and anything else that is a comfort food for me.

Is this normal? I feel really out of control.

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Based on 22 votes (6 yes)
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Comments ( 13 )
  • Ellenna

    Please get professional help before you do permanent damage to your body and future health

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    • Thank you, I will speak with my parents and go from there

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  • Boojum

    I don't have an eating disorder, but I am extremely fond of sweets. The only way I've found to limit my consumption is to have enough discipline when shopping not to stock up. If there's chocolate or biscuits in the house, they will get eaten, but if they aren't available, I'm too lazy to actually get in the car and go out to buy some.

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    • Ellenna

      Sounds a lot like me: I just don't buy biscuits or cakes, lollies very occasionally (less than once a month) which I nearly always eat in the car before I get home and then can't remember doing it, let alone enjoying them.

      I only buy the darkest darkest blackest chocolate I can find, because it's too rich to eat more than a tiny bit at a time; I'm talking about one block a month.

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    • That takes some good restraint, but I will try that, thank you

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      • Boojum

        I find that strategy easier because I only have to exercise restraint for a few moments when I see the junk food in the supermarket. If I buy the stuff, then I have to deal with the constant thought in the back of my head when I'm home that something yummy is in the cupboard.

        Self-restraint is not one of my strengths, and fortunately the people I live with aren't that keen on sweet stuff, so they don't miss it if we don't buy it. Their weakness is cheese and other fatty stuff, and I have no problems resisting that.

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  • TheBlindInquisitor

    Sounds like a eating disorder I remember when I was in a ward when I was younger my roommate had a similar problem difference was he wanted to eat but his body would force him to puke it up it was mental or something most times I had the room to myself because they had to do similar things to him that happened to you to help him keep it down.

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    • Gosh, that must have been really difficult

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  • Ducklingducktheduckling

    It’s normal but it’s not healthy.

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  • SammyStarts

    You should probably get help for your eating disorder if you aren't.

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  • Celebi1

    I think it's normal for people with eating disorders. Please remember though that you need to stay healthy. And to stay healthy, your body needs food. Not a lot of it, but enough. Stick to a healthy diet and you should be fine.

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  • Celebi1

    I think it's normal for people with eating disorders. Please remember though that you need to stay healthy. And to stay healthy, your body needs food. Not a lot of it, but enough. Stick to a healthy diet and you should be fine.

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  • No, I didn't write that. Sorry!

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