Is it normal to feel so "distant" from this world?
All of my life. Ever since I was a little kid. I've always been so distant from everyone. I never had many friends growing up, and honestly, I loved it. My imagination, and the intriguing nature of the love for music, always made me feel like I somewhat belonged. But lately this "Feeling" has become much more apparent.
Lately I've been feeling like I don't belong on this planet entirely. I have been even looking at everyone differently. I question WHY we have noses, why our facial structure is the way it is, and why we are even on this planet to begin with. Like I said before, music is the only outlet i really have. That and some Anime that I delve into to get away. But since I'm just graduating high school and moving on with my life, i feel like i don't WANT to work a meaningless life, waking up every day to the same labor that will one day kill me.
On top of this, I have an INSANELY vivid imagination. Sometimes it's so vivid that I'll envision an entire movie scene happening right before my eyes, all in my head. And i feel so alone. Another thing is, I've always wanted to find the "one." One day i hope that i find the best girl to treat me right and guide me through my hell that I've been dealing with. But i'm not even sure if i deserve that either.
Anyways, I just always have this burning feeling in my chest that makes me feel like i belong somewhere else in the cosmos. I wish that one day aliens could come and take me off to distant galaxies and show me how to REALLY live life. I honestly don't know if this one is worth living anymore, but for music's sake, i'll stay here. Does anyone else EVER feel this way?