Is it normal to feel severe hatred against god?
I really believe that the Abrahamic god (whom Christians, Muslims and Jews worship) does exist. But I feel he looks like a Cosmic Saddam Hussein. I admit that I lack moral compass and I want to do sins according to religions (Especially Islam), but believing that God is real is so terrifying that I envy atheists for their irrational disbelieve in god.
P.S.: I was Muslim, but I don't think that Christianity and Judaism are different, so convincing me to convert into Christianity makes no sense.