Is it normal to feel like you don't belong in this world?
This might sound weird, but I don’t feel like I belong in this world. It feels like this world was not a place I was meant to stand. Not a place like this, where destruction of the world could happen at any given moment. Where we are bound to follow society, chained to a system there is no reason to question. It’s hard to explain when I’m not sure how to describe it.
And I feel really guilty to even have these thoughts because I have a life most people would wish for. In a country where my voice is heard and accepted. With a family full of love, and a system where women are allowed to be educated and work any place they would like.
But I still don’t feel that belonging feeling here. I just feel empty.
If a portal appeared in front of me, I would jump in without a second thought. Even if I didn’t know where it would take me. If I could live in Vesuvia (From the arcana game by nixhydra) I would be filled with joy. Every time I go back to the game I feel welcomed, another feeling of belonging, that I would never feel here. Any other world than this, even if it would be as horrible as Ketterdam .(leigh bardugo, grishaverse) It sounds so weird and I might be crazy, but I feel like I was never meant for this world.