Is it normal to crave for legal revenge? can you help me in any way?

Hello, people. How are you? Hope you are fine. I’m a young woman right now, and I want to get my (legal) revenge against my ex-therapist. When I was still a teen girl, I used to do therapy at her office, but her work was full of malpractice. She continuously compared my life to hers and other people’s and inquired why I had so much trouble feeling well if I just had lived through a ”little” abuse, then went on to compare our lives, asking why I was having so much trouble if she wasn’t, when her life was not so different from my own according to her (In her view, her father expressing love during her childhood only through words rather than personal touch, her being called spoiled by coworkers and getting cheated on by her boyfriend counts as a sad life). For perspective, I was raped and viciously beaten during most of my childhood, and had no one to count on since I grew up on a broken home, and I was just as scared of being killed by my father as I was of being raped. Well, I did not judge her life or anything, everyone has his or her own problems and perceives them in a different way, and that’s why I did not really question her back then when she said that, but did I really need someone telling me our circumstances were the same when they weren’t? I don’t think so.

Shen then proceeded to laugh at my misery in future sessions, and to continuously humiliate and emotionally blackmail me by exploiting my strong sense of responsibility, while at the same time shaming me, saying I had no empathy and treating me like an outcast who should not be taken seriously. She also implied she talked to other people about my case without consent and even compared me to murderers and child abusers. She made such comparisons thanks only to my depression and my anhedonia, I never even suggested wanting to hurt someone and, just because I don’t have pleasure from sex, doesn’t mean I would get such pleasure from abusing children (really, what was on her head, talking like that to someone who was actually raped as a child? But either way, I don’t care). The therapy ended when I could not hold it down anymore and started to question her professionalism and her sense of empathy. According to her she was being “attacked” at her work, which was unacceptable. Priceless.

Anyway, at the time, I could not notice how wrong all her actions were, since I was young, devastated and deeply distressed, but it really helped ruin those years for me and take from me even the chances I had back then of changing my life for the better. After researching about therapeutic ethics some years later, I noticed how absurd her actions really were, and now I’m completely furious at how I was exploited. Okay, worse things happened to me in the past, but in this case I TRUSTED her, I even paid her what little money I had, and I only did so because I needed to cope with those horrible things, and she still treated me like garbage, not so different from just about every other awful experience in my life. Regarding my revenge, I don’t want to do anything that goes against the law; ideally, I would like to use the law in my favor as much as I can. If need be, I would like to sue her. Even so, I want the most extreme revenge I can exact against her, ideally something that makes her change into a better professional, threatens her career or at least leads her to receive official admonition. It’s so hard to get evidence when it gets to psychotherapy, however, and it’s not like I was sexually abused by her, so my case may be somewhat weakened. What are your thoughts? Could you recommend me as well some readings about legal prosecution when it comes to my case? I thank you all for any input you can give, even if it’s only emotional support, sharing experiences or offering moral feedback. I don’t plan to give up, but thoughts about how to cope with my hate are also welcome, and I think it’s also an important topic for me to think about. Given the things that happened with me in the past, however, I don’t have any true friends, and I find making friends difficult, so dealing with my feelings is also just as hard from my perspective a planning to sue someone. Thoughts or readings about how to better choose a therapist in the future would also be very welcome, as I never again had the courage to seek help, and my ability to confide in others is still shaken to this day.